Wednesday, April 11, 2012

on april and zac efron


I was in bed this morning thinking it’s been a week since I wrote anything and I should probably get to it. I fired up my laptop and started drafting this stalker story I’ve had in my head since the weekend. Somewhere in the middle of “I’m not really here” and “My skin blends into the walls,” I got a little lost. I couldn’t remember what I wanted to say or where I wanted to take my stalker. I completely forgot my story.

A few minutes and a fuji apple later, I was bored to tears. I was ready to give up. I saved the single paragraph that materialized before my brain conked out and resolved to entertain other story ideas. I’ve always wanted to do a sort of retrospective on how things were like for me this time last year. I went through my vintage buoys and to my surprise, this is what I found tucked in the bowels April 2011.

B4N. As I look at my archives, I realize I haven’t written anything real in a long time. It feels like I’ve lost my purpose, my reason for logging into Blogger week after week. I started this blog because I wanted a means to express myself. Why then does it feel like I’ve stifled my own voice?

My life’s a little fucked up right now. There are things I need to discover, feelings and ghosts I need to deal with and so I’m taking a little break from blogging. It’s a decision I made with a heavy heart but one I know I need if I hope to return to some semblance of normalcy. I’ll be back faster than you can say not-another-blog-hiatus or didn’t-he-do-this-last-year? Hopefully, by that time, I’ll have found the real reason for my unhappiness. To friends, followers, lurkers old and new, wish me luck as I venture into a new quest of self-discovery.

Okaaaay… not an easy angle to spin. Let’s check out what I was doing two years ago.

AFK. Just to make things clear, I’m still on hiatus. There are a few things I still need to finish before I can fully commit to this page again. I realize that my last post, if anything, was a bit vague on the issue and so I wanted to write a quasi-epilogue to explain.

Another hiatus? That last post I was referring to didn’t help much either.

BYE FOR NOW!!! I’ve come to the conclusion that I need a little break from blogging to focus on other stuff. My life is a mess right now and I think I need all the epiphanies I can get for myself. I won’t be closing this blog. It’s become such a big part of me that to shut it down would be like cutting off an appendage. Anyway, I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Maybe it’ll take a day, maybe a few weeks or maybe a year. I don’t really know. One thing’s for sure, I will be back and I’ll have a lot more buoys to share with you then.

*fingers crossed* Three years ago?

BRB. In completely unrelated news, I’ve decided to take a break from heavy blogging. I’ve recently reacquainted with my first love- fiction. I finally finished writing a story (two years after I wrote my last story) plus I’ve got a few buns in the oven just waiting to be written. Like most infants, they need all the attention they can get and so to do that, I decided to limit my blogging. *hangs up Do Not Disturb sign* See you in a few weeks (hopefully with something good)!

Ugh. Four years ago?

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Waddapack?! I didn’t even bother to write anything in April 2008. I checked and I was right in the middle of a nine-month hiatus. NINE MONTHS. If I were a celebrity, people would’ve gossiped that I had a baby or something!

I sat there, completely mind-fucked by my writing patterns. And all this time, I thought I was just tired. I didn’t know that this month typically saw me hiding from this blog and that I had four years of historical data working against me. What is it about April that dries my pen? I chewed on this question for a little bit and when there weren’t any easy answers, I just said fuck it. Daddy needs a little break anyway. And besides, I’ve always been such a sucker for tradition.

So this is me hiat-ing. I’ll be back in a week or so unless giant snails take over the world (in which case it’s every man for himself!) While I’m gone, here are some gratuitous pictures of Zac Efron that will change your life. You can thank me once you’ve thrown your used Kleenex away. :x



♫: Zac Efron | Get'cha Head In the Game (2006)
Photos: buzzfeed



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60 comments:

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    1. TR: Kurek! haha in both the story and the pictures! I guess you could say it's all part of research. haha

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  2. Must be the heat. It's pretty hard to function in this weather. :))

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    1. RZ: So you too, huh? Perhaps it's the start of summer and our brains are getting fried. lolz

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  4. if you were a celebrity, a nine month hiatus would mean you were in rehab.

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    1. Or you can always tell people you got lost in the sewers. #brittanypeg

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    2. LOF: But I'm not that type of celebrity! lolz I'm feeling very andi eigenmann-ish. My body is a temple but so many people worship! :p

      Victor: And sometimes, I think my cat reads my journals. haha

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  5. hahaha! so uso ang hiatus sa 'yo pag April.. :P

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    1. Nate: Kurek! I've got all these ideas but they end up being just that: ideas!

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  6. Must be summer fever or some unknown disease afflicting you only in April. Hala. Hahah. And you're right, Zac Efron is crazy happiness :D He's like ice cream, and everybody knows what we do with ice cream :P

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    1. Rei: The theme was a long shot but I knew Zac would get me through. Life-changing diba? haha

      Truth is, there was a point to this post that I removed at the last minute. Parang pointless na tuloy siya ngayon. haha I found something when I looked through old journals for April entries. Maybe I'll post it one of these days.

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    2. Hmm. I wonder what that point is :D

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    3. Rei: Usual love shit. haha maybe one day, I'll post it. haha

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  7. Ang init kasi pag Abril, nakakatuyo ng utak. Datsit.

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    1. Victor: Kahit may aircon? lolz Sana nga yun lang yun. I'd hate to have to stop and shit nanaman.

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  8. Zac? Really? That the best you can come up with? He's so over exposed....urrrr....I didn't mean that as a pun.... but yeah, over exposed. Like Justin Beaver. We see so much of these pretty bois that we just get sick of them. Couldn't you have give us (ME) some shots of, say, Jed Madela? Or has he gone to pot? Well, whatever. I'll watch Zac put his hand down his pants if you make me. Whatever........

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    1. Rick: I just love how you called Justin Bieber a woodchucking animal. lolz Whether that was intentional or not, it was fucking hilarious.

      Jed Madela? Seriously? He looks like he ate half the singers in the Philippines*!!! I guess in the past, there was some semblance of cuteness but not anymore. lolz

      Do you remember how you reacted to my last hiatus? That was hilarious.

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    2. yes, I remember... "Oh, Nyl, don't go! Don't go!" He ate half the singers in the Philippines? I just burst out laughing.....! last photo I saw of him he was a bit pudgy. But pudgy can be appealing sometimes. but sounds like he's now just plain freaking fat. Oh well. Too much rice I guess.

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      Your gurl Jessica Sanchez is singing as I type. She's good! Real good! Sounding very black tonight. She'll be a finalist on Idol, but I'm pulling for my boy Joshua Ledet.........

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    3. Rick: I thought it was sweet. You were all like let me at him! let me at him!!! Turns out, I didn't really need a lot of time off then. Let's hope my muses come back soon.

      I think the more records he sold, the fatter Jed got. So people stopped buying his records. We were very concerned. lolz

      And I really hope Jessica wins. I'm more into The Voice but I'd take Jessica over Cheesa any day of the week.

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    4. Dunno.....I really think Idol has the stronger talent this year....not too crazy with what I'm hearing on The Voice. but I'm not watching voice now since I've been working late every Monday night, so I havent really seen all of it.

      Well, take your little damn he-ate-ass. Get your mojo back. (what the fk is a mojo anyway? I always thought it was a drink) I probably should take one too. I've written crap for so long now I don't even know why I bother! Not inspired, and well, not inspired. I need to fall in love and have a few months of drama I suppose, then I'll have something to write about. But that's just too, tiring.....

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    5. Rick: I guess it's the editing of The Voice. They make it so tedious to watch!

      Ooh, I see you're into that character development bullcrap. haha You know Heath Ledger died because he couldn't get the Joker out of his head.. lolz

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  9. at mas inuna ko pa tingnan ang mga pics kesa basahin ang kwento mo. LOL

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    1. Pepe: Ganun talaga yun! haha Visual distraction para matago yung lack of substance ng post? hahaha

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    2. Me too! Tanginang Zac Efron.

      I don't know how you do it. I never had a blogging hiatus. Maybe that's why you write so well. See you around? :)

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    3. James: Write so well ka diyan. Well, I think we all need a break every now and then.

      How about that Zac Efron, eh? :)

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    4. You do. :)

      Yeah, that hot fucker.

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    5. James: Well, thanks James. You know I find your blog very entertaining so all this mutual love is really nice. :)

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  10. Go lang sa hiatus, wag ka lang mag-shut down haha. BTW, I think I saw you once in Greenbelt 3 Cinema. Not sure though pero you're wearing blue shirt hehe #stalker.

    Anyway, nauumay ako kay Zac Efron (gandang lalake ko lang). Matthew Morrison or Daniel Craig, pwede pa. :p

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    1. Ronnie: Thanks! :)

      O, you should've said hi! I'm there most weekend nights (at usually alone so who's the #stalker now? lolz)

      Daniel Craig, hell yeah. Matthew Morrison? Hmm.. pass na ako diyan. haha he looks like a muppet! :)

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  11. Woow! that was hot, holding his crotch is a reward to most of the gays in the whole wide world.

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    1. Tim: IKR! My eyes were as big as an owl's when I first saw the pictures. lolz

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  12. sige, nyl, pahinga ka muna. pero sana huwag masyadong matagal. at sana rin sa pagbabalik mo, matuloy na ang project natin. :)

    napa-omg naman ako sa "dukot" pics. haha!

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    1. Aris: Oo naman! Dali, let's start na. Baka yun pala ang hinahantay ng musa ko. haha

      OMG lang ang reaction? Hotness si Zac!

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  13. I usually have a post or two come April, it being my busiest month at work, I need to vent out a bit and blogging is rather convenient. :-)

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    1. ShatterShards: You need to "make arte" pa? lolz

      I don't know how you do it. The busier I am at work, the lonelier my blog gets!

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    2. Because I need to vent out my frustrations, and writing is one way to do that. Pero tingnan mo naman ang quality ng posts ko versus your posts, I publish first drafts, just so it's already out of my head. Decluttering, kumbaga. :-)

      And yes, I have to make arte once in a while. hahaha!

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    3. ShatterShards: Nahiya naman ako. lolz Go make arte lang. Like, we all need like an outlet or something. :)

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  14. Baka may sumpa ang buwan ng april for you?chos!

    Sige lang take your time pero wag naman 6months ketagal nun!lol

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    1. Mac: Yes, madam. lolz I'll miss blogging too much kung 6 months ano! haha

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  15. Hmm... Zac Efron is really hot. tsk tsk... Enjoy your break! We'll wait for you. :)

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    1. LJ: Thanks LJ! I have 3 EBHBC posts left and then it's on to Round Table! :) #excited

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    3. Ulet... hahaha.... I have five ata, but I will work on it na para when we were on the round table, I am a clean slate. Sana matapos nalang siya bago mag May.

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    4. LJ: Inulit talaga yung comment? lolz

      Ako, baka mag-overlap dahil tuyong tuyo na utok ko. haha May 1 is just a few weeks away!

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  16. galing ng headr ng round table...ehem pagawa nga ako :) please :))) pwera biro

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    1. Mots: Weh eh ano naman alam ko compared to you? lolz

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    2. ako din, gawa niyo naman ako ng header. I am begging! :D

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    3. LJ: Begging talaga?

      O mots, gawan daw natin si kumpare! Ano?

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    4. teka, ako nagpapagawa sayo di ba? lol

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    5. Mots: Kaloka naman! Ikaw tong The Artist ang peg diba? lolz

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  17. Why is his hand in his shorts? Some kinda itchy? Haha

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    1. Andy: The perils of not air drying your balls. lolz

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  18. Me used to say I've been busy and sorry for the long wait in the old and straight-ish blogs that I had, so I could sort of relate to this. Remember I told you that I backread your entries? Yeah, I saw the large gaps, the nine-month and the five-month gaps. Yun palang nakakapagtaka na. MAy times na maiisip mo, magsusulat pa kaya to? Haha. Pero believe me, I had a two-year gap. Mas malala! Haha.

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    1. Green Breaker: Shet, sorry naman at nag-back read ka. I was so whiny then!

      I'm enjoying the little break (a little too much haha) I'm guessing you enjoyed your little two-year break too. haha

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  19. Nawala ata comment ko. Anyway. Haha. Sabi ko lang dun nakarelate ako sa gaps.. Mas malala pa sakin kasi one time, may 2-year gap ako. Naloka yung ilang readers dun sa straightish blog. Hahaha

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    1. Green Breaker: Finlag ng Blogger for spam! haha it happens to me all the time. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. :p

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  20. ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhh the pics are eeeeeeevil!! hahaha :D sooooo stalker-ish haha but i love it :D
    (and yah late na ako nagbabasa ng blogs, parang april din ata ang month ko of "hiatus-ing" hahaha :D

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    1. Sin: Malandi ka! lolz oo, paparazzi shots yan eh.

      Uso ba ang hiatus? Chaka, isang linggo lang tumagal yung akin. haha

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