0:20:26
ʎonqʎʇıɔ is online.
Hey! So, you gonna write something new today?
Uh, yeah. Trying to but the words don’t wanna come out.
What’s it gonna be about?
This thing I thought about.
Duh. Like, srsly what’s it gonna be about?
I was thinking of how we cope with…
(interrupting) Death? Oh, I so love it!
No, I meant how we cope with…
(interrupting) Loss? Oh, I’ll tweet all about it!
Yeah, loss.
(awkward silence) So…
Yeah?
Where is it?
Where’s what?
The story? When’re you posting it? Oh, I bet it’ll fetch a gazillion comments.
Hmm… I don’t know. It’s stuck in there.
Can I see it?
Sure. (opens brain, comes closer to webcam)
Oh… it doesn’t look that nice.
Really?
Yeah, I feel like I’ve seen that before. Like in a movie or something.
You did? (sounds confused) I’m sorry.
Doesn’t matter. I’m still gonna love it.
Okay.
ʎonqʎʇıɔ is offline.
ʎonqʎʇıɔ is online.
Hey, where’d you go?
Sorry, I got a glass of water.
Is it cold? Like the night that doesn’t want to forget?
Hmm. No.
Why not?
My throat’s soar.
You mean it’s sore.
Yeah. That’s what I said.
Like the pain in the middle of your chest? The void you can’t seem to explain?
No. Like I’ve had too many cigarettes and not enough water.
Oh. Okay. (uneasy) So, where’s the story? How does it start?
A woman is dancing. She’s wearing old clothes. I think she’s…
(interrupting) reliving her past? Escaping from the terror of an abusive husband? I LOVE IT! POST IT RIGHT NOWWW!!!
No, not exactly. And I can’t.
Why not?
Because I don’t know how it ends.
Just say something clever like She could wear the old clothes but it would never be like it was before. He had broken her far beyond repair. I LOVE IT!@
Okay.
(long silence)
So, where is it?
I can’t write it.
Why not?
Because I hate it.
Why?
Because no one will read it. Because it’s not new. It doesn’t sound like me. It doesn’t have the littlest part of me.
And that would be strange because? All your posts in the last two years have been like that.
I know.
When was the last time you wrote something because you wanted to? When did you become such an attention whore?
I’m not gonna even dignify that with a…
(interrupting) It’s almost like you spin one of those roletas on TV. What’s it gonna be today, citybuoy? (mocking) What’re you going to write about? Love? Sorrow? Work shit? Family issues? Money issues? Blogging issues? If you think about it, you have more issues than The Inquirer.
Fuck you.
You know it’s true.
(silence)
I mean, what’s the point? Why do you even try so hard to write when no one’s even gonna remember it?
That’s not true. I’m sure they’ll remember it.
I bet it’ll only take five minutes before they’ve forgotten all about that story you worked so hard on. Five minutes.
That can’t be true. They say they love it. They say they can relate.
They say that all the time. You say that all the frigging time. You’re not changing any lives with your work, citybuoy. Don’t take yourself too seriously.
(silence) So, what do you want me to do?
You remember that picture I took of you?
The one where I had a wig on?
Yeah. That one. Post it.
I can’t. I look terrible in that shot. Like a na’vi in grayscale.
Post it. I’ll bet you they won’t even read the post. They’ll just comment on the picture.
But I can’t post that picture. That was just for us. It was a joke.
Don’t explain. Just do it.
Fine. (sulking) Let me look for it. (…) Okay, got it. Now what?
Post it.
Now?
Uh huh.
Okay.
Hey! So, you gonna write something new today?
Uh, yeah. Trying to but the words don’t wanna come out.
What’s it gonna be about?
This thing I thought about.
Duh. Like, srsly what’s it gonna be about?
I was thinking of how we cope with…
(interrupting) Death? Oh, I so love it!
No, I meant how we cope with…
(interrupting) Loss? Oh, I’ll tweet all about it!
Yeah, loss.
(awkward silence) So…
Yeah?
Where is it?
Where’s what?
The story? When’re you posting it? Oh, I bet it’ll fetch a gazillion comments.
Hmm… I don’t know. It’s stuck in there.
Can I see it?
Sure. (opens brain, comes closer to webcam)
Oh… it doesn’t look that nice.
Really?
Yeah, I feel like I’ve seen that before. Like in a movie or something.
You did? (sounds confused) I’m sorry.
Doesn’t matter. I’m still gonna love it.
Okay.
ʎonqʎʇıɔ is offline.
ʎonqʎʇıɔ is online.
Hey, where’d you go?
Sorry, I got a glass of water.
Is it cold? Like the night that doesn’t want to forget?
Hmm. No.
Why not?
My throat’s soar.
You mean it’s sore.
Yeah. That’s what I said.
Like the pain in the middle of your chest? The void you can’t seem to explain?
No. Like I’ve had too many cigarettes and not enough water.
Oh. Okay. (uneasy) So, where’s the story? How does it start?
A woman is dancing. She’s wearing old clothes. I think she’s…
(interrupting) reliving her past? Escaping from the terror of an abusive husband? I LOVE IT! POST IT RIGHT NOWWW!!!
No, not exactly. And I can’t.
Why not?
Because I don’t know how it ends.
Just say something clever like She could wear the old clothes but it would never be like it was before. He had broken her far beyond repair. I LOVE IT!@
Okay.
(long silence)
So, where is it?
I can’t write it.
Why not?
Because I hate it.
Why?
Because no one will read it. Because it’s not new. It doesn’t sound like me. It doesn’t have the littlest part of me.
And that would be strange because? All your posts in the last two years have been like that.
I know.
When was the last time you wrote something because you wanted to? When did you become such an attention whore?
I’m not gonna even dignify that with a…
(interrupting) It’s almost like you spin one of those roletas on TV. What’s it gonna be today, citybuoy? (mocking) What’re you going to write about? Love? Sorrow? Work shit? Family issues? Money issues? Blogging issues? If you think about it, you have more issues than The Inquirer.
Fuck you.
You know it’s true.
(silence)
I mean, what’s the point? Why do you even try so hard to write when no one’s even gonna remember it?
That’s not true. I’m sure they’ll remember it.
I bet it’ll only take five minutes before they’ve forgotten all about that story you worked so hard on. Five minutes.
That can’t be true. They say they love it. They say they can relate.
They say that all the time. You say that all the frigging time. You’re not changing any lives with your work, citybuoy. Don’t take yourself too seriously.
(silence) So, what do you want me to do?
You remember that picture I took of you?
The one where I had a wig on?
Yeah. That one. Post it.
I can’t. I look terrible in that shot. Like a na’vi in grayscale.
Post it. I’ll bet you they won’t even read the post. They’ll just comment on the picture.
But I can’t post that picture. That was just for us. It was a joke.
Don’t explain. Just do it.
Fine. (sulking) Let me look for it. (…) Okay, got it. Now what?
Post it.
Now?
Uh huh.
Okay.
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When was the last time you wrote something that was just for you?
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ReplyDelete@citybuoy: It's okay, citybuoy.
ReplyDelete(this is a reply to a comment you made on my blog. it doesn't have any connection to this post. in fact, i didn't even read it.
I love the song. It fits the post perfectly.
ReplyDeleteOh no, yeah
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"No, I hate it"
"You hated it?"
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"Oh, you really hate it?"
"I really, really hate it"
Uh oh, you don't agree on it
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Uh oh, I think I'm a genius
Uh oh, you're being a penius
Colada, that is
"I hated it that much as well"
ReplyDeleteHate it
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Oh, how you hate it
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You hate it
"Yes, although, my hate could grow."
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So much
Oh, how you hate it
"It's getting... larger and hotter. And with the dog that bit me? that I got rabies from?"
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Oh, how you hate it
"I don't think you hate it as much as I hate it"
"Remember that time they wouldn't let me back into the country?"
You really hate it, so much
"That guy at the, at the airport? The security guy?"
"Yeah."
"That I said I was gonna hunt down and ... hate?"
No wonder that you hate it, 'cause it's all about you
ReplyDeleteFunny you should say that, 'cause it hates you too
I wonder if you hate it 'cause it's something you can't do
And I'm losin' love for you
"You hated him?"
"I hated him. Well, I hate the record more"
Uh oh, we don't agree on it
ReplyDelete"I hate it"
Uh oh, I totally love it
Uh oh, I think I'm a genius
"Hate it"
Uh oh, you're being a penius
Colada, that is
"Yeah, no, I really hate it. I really do."
Hate it, oh, how you hate it, you hate it, so much
ReplyDeleteOh, how you hate it, oh, how you hate it
"You know, I listened to it twice. The second time was worse"
You really hate it
"on a scale of 1 to..."
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"Wow, so a 10 for..."
"We should open a window."
So much
No wonder that you hate it, 'cause it's all about you
ReplyDeleteFunny you should say that, 'cause it hates you too
I wonder if you hate it 'cause it's something you can't do
And I'm losin' love for you
"Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God! Oh! Oh, um, oh, thank you so much! There's, there's, oh my God, thank you! I wanna thank ATO, and I wanna thank Will Gatlin(?), Evan Frankfurt, you're the best! Shoutout to Evan Frankfurt! Doc Dauer, um, Jon Salter, and Will Botwin, and, keys, keys! Can you believe it?! Oh God, Oh my God, I'm so nervous! Um, I wanna thank my boyfriend, Andrew, and, mom, dad! And Nick, Nick! Oh, God. Who am I forgetting? Who am I forgetting? Oh, Jack Trott, and Dave Matthews! Dave Matthews, you're the best..."
ReplyDelete"You know, I always loved that record"
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ReplyDelete"I liked it a lot. The way it was handled, you know, the exposure, and the way we didn't overexpose the exposure."
"Well, we kept a low profile."
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"But now I think we can, you know, take a deep bow of self-congratulatory..."
"obeisance to the industry and to us in particular."
"Well said."
i think this is your best post to date. blog on!
ReplyDeleteyou are like Heidegger describing Dasein.
ReplyDeletethis made me cry.
ReplyDeletetruth is, i yawned a little bit and i got teary eyed. the post was too long and i figured i might as well do more important things like jerk off and stuff so i'm posting this comment to say that i pretended to read it and i pretended to cry,.
okay, i will comment on this later. haba eh. bloghopping!
ReplyDeletethis happened to me a long time ago. i don't wanna talk about it cuz it hurts too much.
ReplyDeletebrother, i want you to know i'm here for you. let's have coffee soon.
ReplyDeletebut i really just want to meet you. maybe we'll have sex.
jesus is lord
ReplyDeletedidn't get it. nosebleed eh.
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keep writing ha!
ReplyDeletethat picture is so nice. u can be a model. of slippers.
ReplyDeletei experienced this before pero sobrang mas grabe. don't worry. you'll get by/
ReplyDeletelahvet!
ReplyDeleteheydet!
ReplyDeleteWhy did you write this? WHat's the point?
ReplyDeleteOkay, so maybe this has gone a little too far.
ReplyDeletePlease visit my site too and let's xlinks!
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ReplyDeletethe timing and structure is to die for!
ReplyDeleteadd me naman sa blogroll mo o. i followed you and put your link in my blog last week pa. haaayzt
ReplyDeleteionsert vague emo comment here
ReplyDeletewow. dami nang nagcomment ah! galing!
ReplyDeleteI used to blog at this page but now I blog over here. Can u update ur links for me?
ReplyDeleteThanks for dropping by my blog. I didn't think yours was too interesting so I'm just gonna leave this generic comment for you.
ReplyDeleteEi, where's the next psot?
ReplyDeleteI cried! Bakit ganun?
ReplyDeleteI sometimes wish that people would be honest if they didn't like my post.
ReplyDeletesalamat naman at dumaan ka sa blog ko! eto, dinadalaw din kita.
ReplyDeleteyou should read this book. i'll lend it to you when we meet.
ReplyDeleteHi Anonymous!
ReplyDeletenice song! and the structure is love!
ReplyDeleteBy now, you have forgotten my post.
ReplyDeleteAng KSP mo dude! Sana sa papel ka nalang nagsulat. Di mo pa inaksaya oras ko.
ReplyDeleteEveryone knows you just plagiarized this from a movie. But I think it was kinda cute.
ReplyDeleteHey! I wrote a post just like this 5 years ago. Here's the link. I hope you read it. And by that, I mean you're obligated to leave a comment there.
ReplyDeletelalalalalallalalalla
ReplyDeletesleepy na ako. i need to finish this soon.
ReplyDeletetogether, we shall unite.
ReplyDeletehi, please to meet you. (?)
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ReplyDeletePlease! Stop writing!
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ReplyDeletegaleng *clap clap*
ReplyDeletebloghopped from someone's page. i don't know why i feel the need to namedrop. i just don't want to seem like a stalker.
ReplyDeletelevel up!
ReplyDeleteSorry talaga. Di ko magets. Babalik ako. May dalang dictionary, thesaurus atbp.
ReplyDeleteParang walang sense. Or was that the point?
ReplyDeleteOh no! Don't worry, kaya mo yan. Ako nga, kinaya ko noon eh. Mas malala kaya yung sakin.
ReplyDelete100 GENERIC COMMENTS. ARE YOU HAPPY NOW, ʎonqʎʇıɔ?
ReplyDeletei liked how you coloured this with chaos.
ReplyDeleteparang ako yung isa sa mga 100 comments ah.haha I didn't know it sounded so generic.haha I must say this post differs from the others, sometimes kasi people tend to shove their ideas into people and the poor writer just tends to follow what he thinks his readers want to read.
ReplyDeletebtw, you're my new myx channel.haha :)
ReplyDeleteWhoa, even the comments are part of the Literature. Nice!
ReplyDelete1. now i can copy any one of these comments for when i go bloghopping. joke!
ReplyDelete2. hmm... should i leave any comment at all? might fall into one of these generic ones haha!
3. i actually enjoy reading the comments section of different blogs and usually come back for the blogger's response. so for me this piece is really interesting. was reading this early this morning and kept on refreshing the page haha!
@Alter: Ang funny nga (or maybe I was just projecting my own shit sa mga nababasa ko) but I thought this post and your Alter+ one was parallel. Maybe even bloggers get tired of blogging.
ReplyDelete@RJ: That's so spot on. Minsan kasi, you stop writing what you want and favor what you think others will read.
And how did you like today's selection? It's an unconventional song from an album with a ridiculous story. Fun lang.
@Will: Thanks Will. It's nothing new though. A few bloggers have done it in the past.
@Sean: Exactly! Fun diba! We should make a script that randomly draws a generic comment. Should be useful.
And yeah, LOF and I were discussing it on FB and I think this post would scare away most people. I'm glad it didn't scare you guys away.
You saw me making it? Haha I got tired na nga after some time. Comment 70-80 was just me rehashing other stuff.
but you do know, jesus is lord.
ReplyDelete@Anonymous: You're back! What a fitting message this Sunday afternoon. lol
ReplyDeleterotflmao
ReplyDelete@Anonymous: Thank you! My goal is to answer all comments in this post with a sunny disposition. lol
ReplyDelete8 down, 97 to go.
ReplyDeleteOkay, so maybe not all of them. Haha
ReplyDeleteOr I could go generic with Hey Anonymouses (Anonymi?) Thanks for dropping by! lol
lol, just don't post 97 times.
ReplyDelete@LOF: I don't think I have the energy/stamina to do it anyway. lol I think I may have developed carpal tunnel syndrome from last night's craziness.
ReplyDeleteI could write something long because I get it. But guess what, Nyl. I don't. I suppose this was an extension of your brilliant Story story, where the unwritten story was this angry half naked chick. I love chat transcripts as much as the next bored homo, but I only read them when I am involved. I suppose I could have stopped halfway, but this had something in it. I reckon I got it.
ReplyDeleteThe comments bit was cute, but I'm not a fan.
Muahness from Pasig Citehh!
@Momel: Thank you for your honesty. I guess you could say this is partially connected to my last post but I don't think I'm fighting stories anymore. I'm at war with myself. lol
ReplyDeletei got scared. is that a bad thing? :P
ReplyDelete@Eric: Oh noez! Di naman. I think a part of me wanted that. Is that bad?
ReplyDeleteno idea. pero kinilabutan ako that's for sure. i mean for a sec i really thought there were anonymous people commenting or like there was someone messing with you, but then hindi naman pala --ansaya, nagkakagulo lang. :))
ReplyDeleteYeah, you mentioned nga in that comment on your blog.
ReplyDeleteIn all fairness, I wasn't alone. LOF joined in on the fun.
i'm so loving the new experiment... kung experiment nga ito...
ReplyDeletekailangan ko ng mag level up... video blog ngayon din!!!
at binuhay talaga ang Via Veloso pic?
bwahahahahaha meron din akong kopya niyan.... post ko ng walang blurred part.... AFRICAN PRINCESS!!!
muahugs
@Megan: But honey, you're forgetting na may African Princess picture ka din!
ReplyDeleteI miss u!
deviant literature :)
ReplyDelete"When was the last time you wrote something that was just for you?"
the last line kinda makes me feel this has something to do with you winning the blog awards, there is the feeling that you need to top it all up because you hold the prestige, when all you ever wanted is to get rid of all the emotions and chaos through writing... i don't know.. maybe it's just me... coz i've been feeling the same lately...
Yeah I saw you makin them haha. I couldn't squeeze a comment in because there were so many updates haha. When I finally typed a suggested generic comment, it didn't take. Somehow there was something wrong with the validation code. Or maybe it was just me typing the code in my phone in bed at the wee hours of the morning hehe. Had to go back in after I woke up :)
ReplyDeletethis post will most definitely be one of your many posts that will stick to my mind =D
ReplyDeletepara itong mahabang safeguard commercial. usapang konsensya. :p
A few of the comments reminded me of 'The Goldfish Pool and Other Stories'.
ReplyDeleteIt seems you have a lot of Anonymuses. See what I did there? :)
(nakakaguilty si 02026 :|)
Nakkkk so this is a true story? So sweet, that last line. And you do not look anywhere near a na'vi! :-)
ReplyDeleteThis entry confuses me BIG TIME.(generic lol)
ReplyDeleteKidding aside, I wanted to say this -- I think you feel something (I couldn't put this "something" into words) toward this 'blogosphere' and how the bloggers 'live and interact' in this world.
Ayun lang.
I'm quite curious, Nyl. What's the relevance of 00:20:26 in this entry? :p
@Ro Anne: Hey! Welcome to my blog. I've heard so much about you from Andy and the gang.
ReplyDeleteAnd what you said explains it perfectly. Parang I don't know if I can write pa. My last three real posts have been about not being able to write fully and it seems to keep getting worse. I guess I just don't want to disappoint when all I ever wanted was to just write how I feel.
Thank you for understanding. And for both our sakes, I hope we conquer this feeling soon.
@Sean: Maybe. Would've been fun if you had joined the party. Line of Flight seemed to have a good time. lol
@Lee: I notice you're into the weird concept posts. Thanks for dropping by. At oo, napabili ako ng safeguard kanina. lol
@Spiral: *googling* Oooh, it's from my namesake. I can't seem to find a readable copy. I wonder what it's about.
@CC: It's sort of a true story. lol And I don't look like a na'vi? Darn it. haha
@Ronnie: Maybe. I've never really been very vocal about it, at least not online but we bloggers have some weird ass rules. lol
But I have nothing against it. I have nothing against anyone. I guess I just miss the times when blogging was easy for me. This post is suicide, I know but maybe I need it to wake me up.
And as for the title (wow, ikaw lang nagtanong) I timed myself while I was writing. Minus the 100 generic comments and the editing, that's the time I got. When it was time to make the title, I felt it was pretty appropriate to make it just as thoughtless as the post. lol Suicide, right?
nyl, teka. nanibago at naguluhan haha.
ReplyDeletesiguro kulang lang yan sa bakasyon =)
@Ahmer: Hey Ahmer! I was thinking about you kanina. Kamukha mo si Jay Chou sa Green Hornet. lol Namiss ko tuloy kayo. Parang this weekend lang tayo di nagkita.
ReplyDeletePwede rin namang kinuklang.. Nabitin lang ata ako!
Nalito ako with all the anon comments. @_@
ReplyDeleteI think it's okay to explore on an old topic. Kasi, when you explore an old topic, you can use some elements of that topic (i.e., love) and maybe combine it with some other topic -- parang Doodle God lang. Reinvent daw. :)
Chos! You just need to drink some Four Loko, and everything comes into place. Teehee.
creative writing talaga ever :) this is great. kausap mo yung mga brain cells mo noh? hehe.
ReplyDeleteYou've taken the notion of being an "attention whore" to a whole (hole?) new level! lol... Funny s**t!
ReplyDeleteBy the way: Re: your mention of Jewel's song on my recent pointless silly post reminded me of her book of poetry "Night Without Armor". I particularly liked her poems titled "camouflage" and "spoiled", in case you ever get around to checking it out.
Amazon.com Review says in so many words that she won't be raining on anybody's "...hit parade of serious poets who write for regular people." Then again, "serious" poets, whatever the fk that is, don't write for "regular" people, whoever they are. (me?)
Fun post! And the "comments" made me laugh out loud!
Rick
why'r you degrading yourself??? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy??!!
ReplyDeleteyou don't have to live up to our expectations..its your blog anyway. TT..makes me wanna cry after i read it....
nyyyylll!!!!!!
-key-
When was the last time you wrote something that was just for you - all the time.
ReplyDeleteTake care!
i love it. i seriously do. you continue to push yourself to the limits and i admire you for that. you never fail to surprise,amaze, amuse and sometimes make us cry. you are such a genius nyl.
ReplyDeletebtw, your works change lives. trust me. it does.
@Rei: Doodle God? *googling* sorry, hanggang solitaire lang alam ko.
ReplyDeleteWow, nakakaadik siya! haha (shit, malalate na ako for work)
And what is this Four Loko? It sounds like a particularly strong drink. ;p
@Nowitzki: Sort of. It's partly me but it's also a warped version of how I imagine people feel when they read me. I don't really know what I'm talking about. I was kinda drunk when I wrote this.
@R. Burnett Baker: You're back!
I'm a pretty big Jewel fan so yeah, I totally understand what you mean. Yeah, she'll never be a serious poet but I don't think that's what she was aiming for anyway. She's for regular folk like me. ;) and I forgive her for the mess that was 0304.
@Key: I think I needed it. I can't breathe in my own space anymore. I don't know. Maybe it's what Roanne said. That's exactly how I feel.
@Brent: That's good. Good for you, Brent.
@Rei: Thanks Rei! I'm a little surprised you and Key aren't in perfect harmony today.
This one's crazy Nyl, been reading this since yesterday and the chaos in comments is confusing my brain cells. Lol.
ReplyDeleteI am not sure if this is a result of your creativity or maybe something's wrong. I will appreciate if it is the creativity but if it is the other way around, someone's here to listen. :)
Fine! Mine's generic! Hehehe...
i agree with Louie, this is something crazy that confused my brain cells as well.. with the anon comments,, ahahaha...
ReplyDeletei liked the way it was written, it tends to speak for yourself, it shows your love on the things you do..
clap clap clap...
write for yourself. although you're just too good to pass up. when i said before that i will always read you, i meant it. i really do. except for the "anonymous comments". had to skip that after a few. no pressure though. write as if it's just for yourself. and whenever you're ready. and as for making an impact on others well i started my journal inspired by you. to write down and hopefully rid of my emotions ( not as good as you. and that is an understatement.) although i write mostly for myself, eventually mustered enough courage to open it up partly because of you. again, no pressure. as you said " we all need to talk to ourselves every now and then". and "what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger. cheers to surviving". too long, sorry =)
ReplyDeleteI shared a link on your fb wall. Enjoy Smoke and Mirrors! :D
ReplyDeletewassshappenning whats been up ??
ReplyDelete:P just write whatever you feel like writing. this is a blog, after all.
ReplyDeleteEPIC... i sense the emotion.. ganda...
ReplyDeleteam freaking learning a lot from you! thanks!
ReplyDelete@Louie: Don't be silly. I'm just a little crazy.
ReplyDeleteI guess it's a little bit of both. Maybe I need a little time away, change my template again. But definitely, something needs to be done.
And don't worry. With you, it's never generic. naks
@Ceiboh: Well, it is something I love. Minsan lang, nakakapagod pag immersed ka masyado. Salamat sa kind words. :)
@Mark: Not hidden anymore? lol
And that's the sweetest thing I've heard all day. It's funny how I would've never known. Thanks. Natuwa talaga ako.
@Spiral: Yeah, I saw it. Thanks!
@Korki: Nothing much. The moon. Y tu?
@Arian, Kiko and Tim: Thanks pohz! Jeje
OMG. As of now, 149 comments...
ReplyDeleteNga pala, I saw 2010 PBA Best Literary Blog Winner walking along the cemetery last week, early evening... Nasa jeep ako nun eh hindi kita natawag ang bilis ng mga pangyayari...
Akala ko transcript ito ng mga nasty chat mo with some friends...
@Glentot: Tanga. That wasn't me. haha Or if it was, wala ako sa sementeryo to hunt for dinner. As in hindi talaga ako yun. *big eyes*
ReplyDeleteAnd I don't have nasty chat with my friends. We only talk about rainbows, butterflies, etc.
For the record, I am disturbed by this post, but I think that is the point. It is difficult not to seek approval from other people, and as bloggers, I think we are slightly wired to need positive feedback.
ReplyDeleteBut if one could let go of that need, even for a moment, then I think one could begin writing without fear.
CB,
ReplyDeleteOk, I can relate somehow at this entry but not exactly disturbed because I don't know you, I mean I know you only through your blogs. Pero syempre as always you never fail to entertain us :)
Anyways, I just like to take note of anonymous comments, kinda annoys me. Hehe.
Cio
i am really enjoying the non-anon comments, cb. its an experiment using shame to strip away stock-commenting and half of them seem to be projecting their anxiety onto you. hahaha. very clever.
ReplyDeletenyl, you're crazy/awesome to have thought of this. :)
ReplyDeleteFresh!
ReplyDeleteThis is why I've tried to keep my blog from friends. It worked the other way around. I've gained new friends because of it.
Here's to talking to ourselves (out loud).
@Manech: It's not easy to let go though. At least without tracing back to your original purpose for blogging.
ReplyDelete@Cio: Yeah, I noticed you get a lot of those in your blog. Oh well.
@LOF: =)) It's kinda mean. I think if I didn't write this, I'd think the blogger's gone cuckoo. But it did eliminate the stock comments, not that there's anything wrong with them.
Blog on! lol
@Aris: Thanks! Blame it on me crazies. haha
@James: Yay! haha the same thing happened to me. I didn't want anyone in my real world to know about my blog but then for a time, this world became bigger. haha
Nyl, naku. How funny, I am planning to write something about the same topic (but different point of entry).
ReplyDeleteHahaha. I bet you this sort of hits the eye with a lot of bloggers.
I remember we had a talk about comments before. Anyway, na miss kita. Let us drink, and you owe a dance at a club.
Kane
just write :) don't be SO critic, ok?
ReplyDelete@Kane: I'm a little afraid of the conversations that don't appear in this comment box. Maybe people are starting to resent me now. *oops*
ReplyDeleteYes, we should totally hang out. We can get that drink but the club dance, haha
@Hero: Welcome to my blog!
haha interseting post and comments. running for the next Lit award? ^_^
ReplyDeletevery confused why there are alot of anonymous comments.LOL and indeed also confused on the picture at first.hehehe mmmm whose face is it?LOL
ReplyDeleteVery creative. :D
gumaganon! sulat lang ng sulat. haha. if its what you love. ^^ cheers neil! ^^
ReplyDelete@Chyng: Not really. More of feeling pressured and still recovering from the last one. Haaay...
ReplyDelete@Kyle: That was me, both times. Sorry about that.
@Mike: Thanks! :) Naks naman, dumalaw yung bigshot. hehe
This serves as my approval for you to use my song in your next posts.
ReplyDelete@Aleck: Why thank you, Ms. Bovick! I'm honored that you read my blog. My friend Glenn is sooooo in love with your song "Gusto Ko Ang Nota." He would really appreciate that.
ReplyDeletehi aleck omg i so love Nota. it's like the soundtrack of my life! chos.
ReplyDeleteSee, andaming fans ni Aleck Bovick!
ReplyDeleteDaming comments: 169! Talagang dun pa ko napunta sa may bandang 69, haha. Lucky day!
ReplyDelete@Andy: Well, it's all about the positioning. Swerte ka pumosisyon kung 69th ka. haha
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