Sunday, January 19, 2014

to my lover on his twenty-seventh year


Someone once told me that if you truly want to be happy, you must marry the kindest person you know. And I briefly thought of this while we were having coffee this morning. The café was full of people but there was only one person I wanted to see, only one person I could ever truly love. You were laughing at something silly I said and there was a slight wrinkle at the corner of each eye. It took my breath away.

You are sleeping as I write this. I hear your gentle snores rising from the bed. Tomorrow you must leave me. You are so real to me, such an integral cog in the machine of my life, that I feel as though I am broken whenever you leave. One day, I will forgive you for the five months you made me wait until you were born. Till then, I relish the idea that the days I spend without you are numbered.

It was as though you knew all this would happen, that day you stepped out of the fog and into my life. You saw past the pretenses, the walls I put up to hide my psychoses, and saw me as the man I didn't know I could be. Forgive me for all the stupid things I did that hurt you. So much of who I am now – the maturity, the strength, the over-all feeling of wholeness – I owe all that to you.

You stir and calm me all in one breath. Happy birthday, my love. You are more than just my greatest adventure. You are all my dreams come true.

♫: Hoku | You First Believed (2000)

29 comments:

  1. at hindi ko pa narinig ang snores n'ya. lol :D happy birthday sa kanya!

    and nice song ah, buti ka pa may dine-dedicate-an na n'yan, yiiiiiii! :D

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    1. Sin: Nag-start siya shortly after you left. lolz Antayin mo yung sayo! Malapit na yan. :)

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    2. i hope magdilang anghel ka na, para naman may dad na uli ang kids ko. charot! :D

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    3. Sin: Malay mo, bumalik ang daddy ng mga bagets? chor

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  2. very sweet and from another angle, i swear i read this once in one of those autobiographies of martial law u.g. kasama. lol

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    1. LOF: Whenever I read stuff from that era, I notice that the way they talk about their cause is almost as poetic as how someone would describe their lover. Interesting though I'd never really given it that much thought till I read your comment. :p

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    2. there was that too. haha. i was thinking of the more literal theme of the "thief in the night" line: "I hear your gentle snores rising from the bed. Tomorrow you must leave me." That's like in every bio of u.g. kasama and/or their spouses. hahah

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    3. LOF: I love it! We should get Victor involved. I'm not really familiar with that world but I can imagine it's a really great angle to explore!

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  4. You are all my dreams come true.....

    Andami mong quotable quotes... Ang sweet at basta ang sweet.... I may not know anything about relationships like this, but I still feel kilig.. Hehe.. Maybe thats love. Just the thought of it makes someone smile and eventually it will fulfill ones dream...

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    1. Yccos: Quotable quotes talaga? hihi Nakakatuwa naman at nakapagpakilig ang post na 'to. Thanks for dropping by! :)

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  5. Happy birthday to the one who made you whole...really heart-warming song... hope u Enjoy this day as a celebration of your love for each other.

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    1. Unknown: Thanks! And welcome to my blog. Ang lakas maka-intriga ng username mo ha. :x

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  6. Happy Birthday to that one special person :)

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    1. Simon: Thanks! Ipapaabot ko nalang. :p

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  7. Hahaha. I will always remember the you told me your story and how the two of you started. Specially the day he came out of the fogs. You are a lucky guy, my friend. :D

    Happy Birthday, You know who you are. :D

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    1. LJ: That's right! Not a lot of people know that the "out of the fog and into my life" part actually happened! haha

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  8. Somebody is just so in love :D Happy Birthday.

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    1. Rei: You know I'm not fond of these long pledges of love but two years is a long time naman. haha Ipapaabot ko din yung greeting mo! :)

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  9. ay kay tamis namaaaan. hihi

    happy bday kay kembot. :)

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    1. Kalansay Collector: Hayaan mo na. Minsan lang naman. hihi Salamat!

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  10. What a lovely way to say it! I hope one day I'll get to meet someone who will make me want to write something like this.
    Happy birthday to your special someone! :)

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    1. Beliza: You will! It is written. :x And thanks! I'll send your well wishes his way. :)

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  11. Kung inalay sa akin ang liham na kagaya nito, hinding-hindi ko na papakawalan kung sino man siya. :) <3

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    1. Geosef: Sabihin mo yan sa kaniya! haha baka mauntog at matauhan! lolz

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  12. hindi pala napublished yung comment ko :'(

    salamat dito :D nakumpleto ang kaarawan ng barrio teacher! <3

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    1. Mots: Walang anuman! hihi Tara na't mag-Disney marathon. :X

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