Monday, February 20, 2012

never over


You are the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
The day you loved me is the day my heart started beating.
If you leave, you’ll take my heartbeat with you.

And I fully meant to say these things to him when he called and said he’d come over. I knew he came back to her. I knew he was gonna say goodbye and so I braced myself. Thing is, when he arrived, the words got caught in my throat. Instead, I listened to him speak about us, about her, about how he never knew he loved her still. In my silence, I thought about how words mean different things when you say them differently. Say my little speech slowly with a half-smile and some tears in your eyes and it’s a proclamation of love. Say it softly, say it in a hushed voice, make the consonants extra crunchy and it becomes a threat. You’ll take my heartbeat with you. I will die when you go.

He says he could see me in his mind’s eye when I am older. He says I will survive losing him. Why don’t I believe?

I tried everything. I was Kübler-Ross in hyper mode. Denial: This isn’t happening. Anger: You said you loved me! Bargaining: I’ll change. I swear I will. Depression: Just please… (interrupted) I will die when you go. Then back to Anger.

You hear that? I yelled. I will die when you go! I grabbed the kitchen knife and held it against my pulse.

Don’t be stupid, he said, chasing me through the kitchen. You’re better than that. I threw vases and bottles at him to slow him down. The sound of glass breaking stabbed through the February nighttime. When I became tired, I sat crumpled in a corner. He almost walked towards me, stopping only when he saw the sea of broken glass that surrounded me. I imagined his bare feet stepping on the colorful pieces. I wanted his blood on my floor. I wanted the warm, red liquid to seep through the wood. He put on his boots and walked over the broken bottles. He pried the knife from my weakened hand and sat down beside me. And then without warning, the arrival of the last stage.

Acceptance: I lay my head on his lap, the way I used to on long cab rides home. He messed up my hair, running his hands in different directions like a message lost in time.

Why do you still want me? he asked. I’ve done nothing but hurt you. Why do you want me to stay?

I looked him in the eye. I wanted to see his face when I tell him that our happiness, though a ghost, still warms my bed at night.

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Tell me our story, I said through silent tears. The sun was beginning to rise. I want to hear how you remember it.

What would that solve?

Nothing. Everything. I want to know what it was like for you to love me. Tell me like I wasn’t there. A salty tear dropped from my cheek to his leg. He stopped playing with my hair and lit a cigarette. I could hear his labored breathing from my spot on his lap. His belly pushed my head a little whenever he inhaled.

When I was 31, I fell in love with a boy, he began. I closed my eyes and pictured the words in my mind. He had dark, messy hair, a good heart and a tight ass. He was beautiful and for the better part of that summer, he was mine.

♫: Foo Fighters | Walking After You (1998)
Photo: broken
Post: Mississippi (first draft, unpublished)



The Emo Blogger's Happy Blogging Challenge: The Ghost of Happiness

130 comments:

  1. This made me think of the wnderful things that i have been through all my life. Wonderful meaning, not everything is happy but wonderful because i have learned lessons from them t keep me strong and hope that I will be once again enough and ready to love, and luckily i found him... Still struggling but better because it's not only me, but both of us are helping each other to surpass the trials... Is this me?... lol...

    Beautiful post!..

    JJRod'z

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    1. JJRod'Z: Nice to hear from you again. Well that explains why you've been absent these past few posts. You're in love! Congratulations!

      Yes, this is about everyone who's ever loved. I look back at the memories that inspired this post and I can't help but feel a sense of victory. Nalagpasan na natin, friend. Wala bang medal? ;p

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    2. Ako meron na? So far, there are plans... Airplane tickets to the Philippines is the next. His interest of meeting my family and being with them is enough medal. We are staying in one house now kaya masaya na din. After a terrible break-up, ok na ko. Yehey! May tomotoo na sa aki... Hahahaha....

      Have fun friend!

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    3. JJ: And after all that last year put us through, it's nice to see the fog slowly lifting, no? :) Congrats!

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  2. How fitting, I also feel like eating the corners of my misery right now. The last line of my post would encapsulate the same thoughts here, I still love him even if it hurts me.

    This post is lovely. I had to read it twice. Ikaw na talaga, kuya Nyl. :)

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    1. Joe: Does his ghost still warm your bed at night? If so, are you particularly saddened by the thought? Strangely enough, may feeling after a breakup na nothing makes you happier than to think about all that you've lost. I think (and sana tama ako) that was the peg of this EBHBC theme. haha

      "I still love him even if it hurts me."

      Kelan pa naging masama mag-mahal? Di naman kasi yun yung masakit eh. What's painful is everything else that's not love. An ex told me that. We somehow managed to become good friends after all.

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    2. All you've lost, like the person and the feelings I've invested? Not those necessarily. I'm thinking right now, what if I've spent my time on other things? *bitter sh^t*

      What's painful is everything else that's not love. Hurt is very unspecific, kuya Nyl. It is a summation of little pains until you can't really think of the main reason why you're hurt. It also doesn't imply na masama ang magmahal. Ang masama ay ang masaktan. Ang magpakasakit dahil sa mali ang dahilan kung bakit mo pinaglalaban yung pagmamahal na yun. Does it still make sense? Haha. Antok na ako eh. Sorry if it's topsy-turvy. Good night kuya.

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    3. Joe: So naloka naman ako sa reply mo. haha teka, mag-iisip muna ang Kuya Nyl ha. hahaha (yes, I'm fully embracing the name dahil tinawag mo ako niyan and it looks like you're not having a great time hehe)

      I could bombard you with cliches like okay lang yan, joe. lahat naman tayo, nabbrokenhearted or there's plenty more fish in the sea etc etc etc. Pero I'm sure di ka nauubusan ng friends who offer such advice (whteher solicited or not ano?) trabaho na nila yan eh. haha

      What I can offer you is my side of the story. Akala ko di na ako magsusurvive nung nawala si A pero okay pa naman ako ngayon. Tumutibok parin puso ko. After some time, it even started beating for someone else. Hearts are funny things. Napaka-resilient if you let it. haha

      Nakakatakot, oo. Lalo when you think about all you've invested sa last relationship tapos baka mawala nanaman. Mas madali mag maktol, magemo emohan.. that's what most blogs are for. release, kumbaga.

      Pero try not to hold on to it for too long. Bata ka pa and there's so much love out there if you'd only allow the opportunities to actualize.

      (Pwedeng magsingit ng isang cliche. isa lang haha) Galing ito sa character ni tetchie agbayani sa unoficially yours. tinanong siya ni angel kung hindi ba siya nagsasawa to keep trying/loving again. winner sagot niya (salamat google)

      "Nagsasawa naman pero ‘di lang ako napapagod magmahal."

      Sana nakatulong... Let's all hope we never grow tired of loving. :)

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    1. i'm enjoying the camaraderie we have in revealing our truths through the pretext of this challenge. mine were primarily sexual or drug related, whereas you don't limit yourself. incest, homicide, i can't wait for the next 9. yes.....

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    2. LOF: And the irony is, this is all under the pretext of happy posts. I didn't realize mine had a theme. It's wonderful how you pointed that out although I doubt if anyone's died of bubog. haha

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    1. Gaspard: Ooh, the model in that blog is back! WB!!! And thank you for your kind words. :D

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  5. "you never get over it. but you get to where it doesn't bother you so much."

    -the virgin suicides, jeffrey eugenides

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    1. Geek: And it's true. It doesn't really bother me anymore. Even though the person I wrote this about was in my head/heart for two years. Longest dry spell of singlehood evarr.. haha

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  6. The last paragraph has begun the story. I want to hear it. You must begin, so I can know the ending. There's always an ending, right? I truly pray not.

    Your writing grabs with claws and won't let go.......

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    1. R. Burnett Baker: Oh Rick, what can I tell you? They got back together, then they split up again then there was this other guy and they were together for a few years. Then they broke up and we sort of messed around a bit. Now he's back together with the first guy and they couldn't be happier. We managed to stay really good friends despite all the drama I conjured. haha

      "Your writing grabs with claws and won't let go......."

      What a generous compliment from a talented writer. Thanks, Rick! :)

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  7. Some years ago, during Fall, a similar story came to me. And I was never the same, like before.

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    1. Désolé Boy: What happened? It's cruel how some stories can change us but I wonder if we'd ever be the same if they didn't.

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  8. Despite of all the pains that I have been through, I realized,that I am stronger than that....and I am thankful for it, thanks for this!

    :))

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    1. T.R.Aurelius: Ooh, a new face! Welcome to my blog, sir! :) And I'm glad that you emerged from all that stronger. It takes a pretty big man to learn from something painful, no?

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    2. true! and turning your back against it is not the key,
      we have to face it ourselves with all our strength and along the way we get to strengthen ourselves more :))

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    3. T.R.Aurelius: As the great philosophers Nietzsche and K. Clarkson said, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. haha

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  9. Siguro while things are happening to you in real life, in your mind you're already visualizing how they're gonna look like written on your blog LOL.

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    1. Glentot: Diba ganun naman lahat ng tao? I'm sure ikaw din. haha

      I went out with a blogger once. We were messing around and my fingers were walking along his arm. Biglang sabi niya "Nag-iisip ka ng blog post ngayon no?" Nawala tuloy yung draft. haha

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    2. haha... nangyari din ito sa office, my officemate caught me doodling with stars on a sheet of paper. Then, he saw me write something on the scratch paper, he just said, i type mo na yan, mahirap magulit ng blog post. Nawala din ung draft. Naconscious kasi ako:P

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    3. LJ: Hassle diba? Tinry ko din yung nakita ko sa isang movie. Nirecord ko yung nasa isip ko kaso when I was playing it back, naconscious ako ng bonggang bongga. Ang ending, I've got bits and pieces of posts sa phone ko, sa iPod at kahit sa likod ng mga resibo. haha

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    4. tangina mo Glentot, nawawala problema ko sayo. hahahahaha

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    5. YJ: Aminin, guilty din? haha

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    6. James: More guilty people! Wala naman atang masama doon. It's part of being who we are. haha

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  10. Still in love then. Reconciled? Seriously, Nyl, intriga na pag hindi pa sa yo ibinigay and literary award this year.

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    1. Peter: We're really good friends. Shet, ang showbiz? I explained the rest of the story in a reply to Rick.

      "Seriously, Nyl, intriga na pag hindi pa sa yo ibinigay and literary award this year."

      Peter, I love you for saying this. The kid who won's pretty good naman. Plus I like how I feel more free to write now than last year. haha Aning aning ako nun eh.

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  11. no thanks for making me cry.. leche ka Nyl! hayheytchu! :P

    may kurot sa puso..

    ayan, i've dried my tears na.. next post, please! lol.

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    1. Nate: Sorry naman. Pero diba okay na naman kayo ni C? What's wrong?

      And yes sir! Back to work! haha

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  12. Haist, lahat ng post mo nakakarelate ako. Ganitong ganito ako sa first relationship ko. shet! :P

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    1. LJ: Kahit yung jejenese? haha baka ganun talaga tayo sa mga unang relationship. Di pa takot lumaban and to give everything no?

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    2. Probably. O maybe we all want our first relationship to be the last. However, reality sucks.

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    3. LJ: Masakit nga yung realization na yun but when does it start? Sa end of the first relationship? Second? Will it ever end? Nakaka-five million relationships na ata ako pero it still crushes me when I realize na di pa pala siya yung makakasama ko habang buhay... *emuuu*

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    4. Haha... May reply pala ako na dapat balikan, pasensiya naman.

      Honestly, I really don't know. Maybe it happen for some (Nanay ni Sarah G), but its clear that it will never happen for us. Kaya nga, may "Denial: This isn’t happening. Anger: You said you loved me! Bargaining: I’ll change. I swear I will. Depression: Just please… (interrupted) I will die when you go. Then back to Anger."

      We just have to change the last part -- from Anger to Acceptance! Pak!

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    5. Acceptance - God has other plans for me, I will just lift everything up to him. Its time to be happy again. :)

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    6. LJ: That's pretty. :) Namimiss ko na tuloy mag-simba.

      At dahil sayo, umabot sa 100+ mark yung comments ng post na 'to. First time it happened (except for yung 0:20:26 na manufactured yung comments. haha) Salamat!

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  13. "Why do you still want me? he asked. I’ve done nothing but hurt you. Why do you want me to stay?

    I looked him in the eye. I wanted to see his face when I tell him that our happiness, though a ghost, still warms my bed at night."

    This and the last lines are I think the best parts of this post. Talk about crazy demented happiness.

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    1. Rei: Pero it's still happiness naman diba? I was worried na baka ma-callout ako na emo post to and mapenalize ng 5 more happy posts. At this rate, I'll finish the challenge ng December!!!

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    2. Well I think it is. Considering that the character holds on to a happiness long dead. You know, there's a reason your theme this week is "The Ghost of Happiness". I mean, aren't ghosts suppose to be dead?

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    3. Rei: True true. Salamat for the confirmation. haha

      And technically, this theme isn't for this week. I sorta skipped ahead. Theme#8 ata ito. Anyway, everyone's timing is a little screwed up naman. LOF's done na, Spiral and YJ are still working on Madness, Sitting Pretty's done na with that... haha craziest challenge evarrr..

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    4. Hohoho. Who thought of the themes? Was is a group effort? If it was just one person I'd commend him for his awesome-ness.

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    5. Rei: Spiral and I did pero it was mostly him. haha I think I came up with like two of them. Si Spiral na yung the rest. haha

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    6. Hwaw. You're amazing. Now I'm thinking of making my own blogging challenge. Wonder what it's gonna be about..

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    7. Rei: You can join us! But then mega habol ka if ever... Go? I can invite you through Facebook. :)

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    8. Naku. Kakahiya kung makiki-join pa ko sa mga magagaling. Hehe.

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    9. Rei: don't be silly. Masaya kaya!

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    10. Oh well. I suppose I need fun hahaha.

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    11. Rei: Dali, I've added you on Facebook. Once you confirm, I'll add you to the FB group and then you'll find the themes there. Start with a prologue! :)

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    12. LJ: Tara, habol ka! Add kita sa FB page. :)

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    13. game... add mo ako ha. anong name ng page? :)

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    14. LJ: Emo Blogger's Happy Blogging Challenge (haba! haha) pero naka-secret group siya so add nalang kita. :)

      Teka, na-add na pala kita. haha parang tanga lang. Pasensiya na.. kanina pa gising.

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  14. tarages naman oh! i've been a lurker citibouy and this is my first time posting.

    pinaiyak mo ako sa story mo. i'm in this process myself. heart broken ako.

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    1. Rowell: You don't know how your comment's warmed my heart. I always get surprised when I learn about lurkers (yay!). Parang di ako nakakapaniwala. haha Thanks for making your presence known. :) I really appreciate it. Welcome welcome! :)

      And I hope you feel better soon. To be fair, akala ko di na ako makaka-move on from the relationship this was based on pero buhay pa naman ako. haha

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    2. nakarelate din ako. pero walang iyak moment na naganap hahah. and lurker din ako (choz).

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    3. Joe: ikaw na ang lurker! Haha I'm glad nakarelate ka. At least di mamatay yung kwento with me (teka, bakit ang morbid ko?)

      Kamusta na? Malungkot ka parin?

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  15. Citybuoy: I'll be more active now in blogging. :) I'll peruse all your entries and we're gonna be good friends! ^_^ (ay parang desperate lang sa kaibigan)

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    1. Rowell: Di naman desperate. haha We can never have enough friends, ano? And as for being more active in blogging, isang malaking check! kaso naka-private profile mo. Lemme know kung anong URL ha. :)

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    2. Citibuoy: nawindang ako ng bongang bonga! I just read Segueing Cousins.

      Now, ang ikiniwindang ng utak ko ay kung fiction 'to or based on your real life. When I looked at your About section, nasa Pinas ka, eh ang setting ay nasa US. (you really captured how they talk, the diction, etc). Or perhaps you chose to live in the philippines?

      Feel ko ang tali-talino mo. lool.

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    3. Rowell: Which one? Never over is semi-fiction. Most of it happened pero at different times tapos may mga truly fiction talaga like the walking over broken glass with a big boot. haha

      I didn't live in the US. I guess I just watch too much TV. Medyo trying hard nga yung diction ng Segueing Cousins eh. I know that now that I've facilitated American culture modules. haha

      And I'm not that smart. Promise. Just ask any or maybe all of my exes. haha

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  16. Ahhh, you always make me believe. I have missed your writing, as well! Foo Fighters? Right on :)

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    1. Amy: I'm happy to see you've been writing more regularly now. :) And yes, the Foo Fighters rock. Have you listened to the new record? It's super awesome.

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  17. benta ka nyl :) im your no. 456 fan hahaha sige na nga, no. 1

    emo blogger's emo post? parusahan na tong si nyl

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    1. Mots: Oy ano ka. Happy kaya to. Basahin mo yung thread namin ni Rei. haha

      #1 fan ba kamo?

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    2. ikaw nang may 70 brain farts. wait lang. charut.

      competitive much!

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    3. Mots: 77 na! haha are we too competitive for our own good? lol

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    4. eto na dumadagdag na ko sa brainfarts mo ah. utang na loob to hehe

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    5. Mots: eto naman, nag-abala ka pa. Haha

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    6. tama si leo. dapat may magpublish na sayo. masyado ka nang magaling para sa blog

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    7. Mots: Masyado talagang magaling? haha Dali, ipublish mo na ako! :p

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    8. inaasahan ko pa namang ibalik mo ang papuri sakin hihi

      oo, mgaling ka. leche. haha <3

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    9. Mots: Ay erase erase... mas magaling ka kaya! ang galing galing mo! haha ako magsusulat, ikaw mag-illustrate. game?

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    10. dami kong tawa dito! mga 30M haha... mga letse kayo, kulit kulit

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    11. LJ: Anong 30M? Sorry, mahina pick-up ko. haha

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    12. di ko rin nakuha yung 30M. gusto mo sa teacher's pwet naman tayo mag-usap? lol pahabain din natin hahah

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    13. Mots: Ang funny mo! Feeling ko susuper level up ka sa next post mo dahil nuknukan ka ng competitive. Buh-rrrring it!

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    14. 30 million daw ang tawa nya hihi teka tama ba pagka-gets ko? lol :)

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    15. Carlo: Well that makes perfect sense then. haha Gusto ko din tumawa ng 30M!

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    16. at online ako ngayon aminin mo yan. hahah ayan, 121 brainfarts na. alam ko na 30 minutes..

      wala nga akong pang level up na post eh. magpost kaya ako ng nude pic ko?

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    17. Mots: hubbah-hubbah! char

      Naku, are you saying kailangan nakahubad ka pa to compete with me? eh madali lang naman mag-hubad! tatapatan ko din 'yan!! haha

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    18. WAG NA. baka makita pa nila ang tight ass mo hihihi

      argh. bakit ganun yug oras sa comment ko? sang daigdig ka ba naroon nyl?

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    19. Mots: Oo nga eh. Tinry ko sa settings, naka Philippine time naman ako. Di ko mabago yung oras sa comments. ewan. i-plus 8 hours lang yata. haha

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  18. IKAW na ang may tight ass, Nyl. xoxo

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    1. Spiral: If you meet me in person, you'd know na "tight" may not be the best adjective to describe my behind. haha Some people call it ginormous, Kardashian-like.. chos!

      Kidding aside, naweweirdohan din ako sa line na yun. Maybe I should edit...

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    2. only if its non-fiction, cb, only if its non-fiction. =P

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    3. LOF: Are we seriously talking about the tightness of my ass? haha perhaps nothing is ever truly fictional? :p

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  19. i closed my eyes with you and i smiled. :)

    as for the nyl's behind spiral prince, it bounces along with his walk. lol. kidding nyl :p

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    1. Lee: I'm glad you got to smile. That was sort of the effect I was going for.

      At talagang di makalimutan ang bounce ko? haha How are you? I miss you na...

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  20. "tell me our story..."

    as for me, this line came too long, way too long. but when i was finally able to utter the line, it was such a great relief, like a rebirth or something like that. now, i can ask ex to tell me our story with smile on my face and without hesitation.

    and with this post, i wonder now: if i delivered this line right there and then, when the person is turning his back on me and walking away, would it sound desperate for consolation? it makes me laugh now. crazy fun thought. haha.

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    1. Pepe: I see what you mean. I think when I did say it, I wanted him to remember why he loved me. Maybe I was begging but the Leo in me will never admit to it. haha

      "i can ask ex to tell me our story with smile on my face and without hesitation."

      This story took several years to write. I was finally able to when it didn't hurt anymore. If only it were always that easy. haha

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  21. In a relationship--friendship or whatever--I always cherish the early stages. That's the best part. I know that eventually, everything will go downhill from there. Cynical ba? Hindi naman, tumatanda lang, hehe

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    1. Andy: Oh dear. Wag naman sana. I think we always have to believe even if everything else is saying there's nothing to believe. Or I could be just ridiculously in love. haha

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    1. Gervin: Daddy? haha didn't people call M that? Yikeee... naku Gervin. Maghanap na tayo ng closure. char

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    2. eh? I was referring to MATURE men in general. Kaw talaga?

      Closure? Magkano ba yun at san nakakabili? :))

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    3. Gervin: Shet, ang wagas ng tawa ko. Sorry namenn... I mistake, you mistake, no one's ferpek!

      At I'm sure kung nabibili ang closure, parating out of stock yan!

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  23. clap clap clap... beautiful... :)

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    1. Juber Marie: ooh you're back! :)

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    2. trying... hehe... :) I have finally come to terms with my lack of writing prowess...

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    3. Juber: Don't be silly. I was always entertained by the parteeboi. Is that why naka-private na blogelya mo?

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  24. Have you written a book already?

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    1. Leo: oh sir, you flatter me endlessly. Hehe nakiliti ako sa idea ng comment mo.

      Wala po eh pero sobrang dream ko yan. Maybe one of these days, I'll find the courage to pit something together.

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  25. at first i was like is this for real?
    but reading it more and more makes my heart cry out and burst out to what i feel inside.
    this is so heart touching nyl~ i really love it

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    1. Angel: Oh dear. Sana kung ano man ang nagpa-relate sayo sa post na 'to, sana maayos na. :) Thanks for dropping by! :)

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    2. well, I'm free now, I mean naayos na. I don't know what's with your blogs but im kinda addicted to them. and I'm not gonna drop by anymore coz i'll always stay here on your blog to read more and learn more.

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    3. Angel: Awww thanks! And I saw the FB status updates you posted. Sana talaga maging happy ka na. Smile parati! :)

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  26. oo nga eh~ i hope so~ well sana ma-help mo din ako to improve my writings.. ikaw din! God bless

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    1. Angel: Hanggang dito trainer mode parin? haha Lemme know how I can help! :)

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    2. tehehe~ dont worry i'll let you know pag need ko na talaga~ i need to do my best first right?! and i can still remember the things u always tell us and ung mga lessons~

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    3. Angel: Oh yes. Haha I remember I even used a few of my stories to test your listening comprehension. O ibang klase ba yun? Or nag-certify ka na when we got to the nitty-gritties haha

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    4. as i remember nyl, di ko na yata alam yan~ well few of your stories, kasi naman eh dapat pala hindi ko muna pinasa.. lol naaalala ko pa yung nag-joke ka na hindi ako nakapasa .. tehehe tapos ako papala yung highest .. i miss being there, anyways sometimes kung di ka busy drop by ka sa blog ko. check mo kung tama mga pinagsasasabi ko. mwah. smile always :)

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    5. Angel: Sige sige.. sorry busy lang with work and stuff. Keep writing ha! :) Magandang outlet yan.

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  27. You're always going the best writer for me. :) EJ days wouldn't be the same without you. Kuya Nyl! Ang ganda! Nakakainis sa ganda! I'll be your fan forever :)

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    1. Ria: You're too sweet. And I'll always be your PC as long as you'll be my DID! :)

      Can we please hang out soon?

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    2. Yes, PC! Hehe :) Bakit ba hindi na lang totohanin? chos!

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    3. Ria: Let's set something up via FB. At as for totohanin, haha see next post. char

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  28. i soooooooooooooooooo love this one nyl!!! <3
    grabe, i really envy you on your writing skills, and alam mo naman na i look up to you ever since high school :)
    tell me what inspired you on this on our next time together ah! :)

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    1. Carlo: Oh wow, bagong name! Naghuhudyat na ba ang panibago mong blog?

      Look up talaga? Kaloka ka, teh! Sige, ichichika ko sayo next time we meet. Pero alam mo na 'to. You met sa Seattle's, remember?

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    2. yep :) that's actually the name of my new blog. pero scared ako i-post yung nagawa ko na dahil sa pagbabanggit ko ng iba-ibang terms ng genitalia. wahahaha
      hmmmm not sure kung sino ito. anyway maaalala ko din. :)
      and yeah, totoo kaya. i can't put to words properly yung mga naiisip ko. gift yan teh, go lang and share it with the world! :)

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    3. Carlo: I can't see the blog! Naka-private yung profile mo.

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  29. hmmmmm wet lang.
    i can kembot the settings but di ko pa kasi nipo-post e. so wala pa itong laman. ahihi :)

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