Monday, June 28, 2010

side x side

I’m a good listener. I’m a pretty good kisser too. At least that’s what I’ve heard. Not that I’ve kissed a lot of people. I’m pretty generous. I’m always quick to pick up the bill. I’ve been told that I’m smart. I’m a lot of fun so you know you won’t get bored with me. I’m really good with kids and parents love me. If I really wanted to, I know I could be a good boyfriend.

My love is bright and warm like the sun. If you let it, I promise I would never do anything to hurt you. I’ll keep you safe. I’ll let you sleep in my arms for as long as you’ll have me. I’m a pretty good lay too. Just so you know.

Photo Credit: Like Night and Day

Beyoncé
Why Don’t You Love Me?
I Am… Sasha Fierce

When people bore me, I look into their eyes and pretend I’m listening. I nod, make generic comments here and there and I have them convinced. I’m a little too impulsive for my own good. That’s something a lot of people have told me. I cry too easily. I get mad quickly. I lose interest in things before my mind is able to fully adjust to them.

My heart is cold and dark. I’m not perfect. I am deeply flawed. I hope you don’t hate me for these little things. They are the product of years of loving and leaving, of losing and winning. Forgive me for this is all I’ve ever known.



Beyoncé
Flaws and All
B'Day

55 comments:

  1. interestingly, in my mind, you put all of the good things on the shadow side and "bad" things on the bright, sunny side.

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  2. Wow, LOF! That was quick.

    And I can't believe you picked up on that. At first it was a question of aesthetics. The album art sort of clashed with the original picture [here].

    But then I realized the "good stuff" weren't exactly "true stuff." At least not all the time. I'm so much more like the right column so I guess the sun should be there.

    Or aesthetics. Yes, blame it on the aesthetics. haha

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  3. we are only ourselves when we are alone.

    :creative entry

    bang!

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  4. @Alterjon: Re:Alone So true. And lately, I've been spending a lot of time by myself. I was eating alone when this sort of came to mind. Strange.

    Thanks for stopping by!

    @LOF: I changed it back. I figured my explanation didn't make sense and I shouldn't worry too much about aesthetics. haha

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  5. Good question, Engel. No one in particular. Just someone out there, floating in my universe. I should really get out more. haha

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  6. well, i liked it the other way. but this is also nice. =P

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  7. This is quickly becoming my most edited entry. Haha I tried to change the first album art to the grayscale version but then I couldn't get a feel of the contrast anymore so I just let it be.

    And three people have commented and I'm still tweaking the words. It's a little too cheesy, even for me. haha

    Look what a sleepless night can do. I think it's time to go to bed.

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  8. True. Maybe I should edit that. Now my head hurts.

    Warm like the sun?

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  9. great post neil! i think im a little bit of both. i always enjoy reading your blog. it makes me think. hahaha. you know, being the shallow person that i am. hahaha.

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  10. Hey Mike! Thanks for dropping by. It's always an honor. :D

    Me thinks there's a bit of night and a bit of day in all of us. Now which side we show at what time is what dictates the success of your relationship. Haha I've stopped trying so it's mostly night for me.

    "i always enjoy reading your blog. it makes me think. hahaha. you know, being the shallow person that i am. "

    Wait, that didn't sound right! haha j/k

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  11. fun post, makes me think about my flipsides... pero ayoko isulat, anghirap :P

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  12. Believe it or not, writing it down was the easy part. It was the HTML-ing para magi siyang columns that was a little messy for me. haha

    I'd like to read about it. If you ever feel like posting it, just holla at me. :D

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  13. you definitely are a good listener. and a great friend. :)

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  14. Aww, thanks Mikee. That's so sweet of you. And to think I wrote that bit for contrast. I don't think I'm a good listener at all! haha

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  15. Trust me, you are. I've had my share of bad listeners. I think it's better that you pretend you're listening even when you're bored then "make generic comments here and there ". Kesa naman you constantly interrupt someone just to switch the topic back to you. haha

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  16. Haha haaay Mikee, you always know what to say. Pero bad yung di nakikinig. I don't think I've ever done that naman to you. lol

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  17. i like your blog a lot! it's easy, breezy, beautiful. parang covergirl lang. :)

    i bet you're a really really nice person. :)

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  18. Hey Nimmy, ang funny ng comment mo. Naintindihan ko kasi nanonood din ako noon ng ANTM.

    I wouldn't say I'm a particularly nice person. Siguro sakto lang. Hala, naconscious tuloy ako. hehe

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  19. Sa IP Calls pa, no Mike? Pero never sa friends. hehe

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  20. Of course! That's why I'm glad that we're still friends. :)

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  21. Reunion na ito kina Bentong with sina Mamu!

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  22. Oo nga eh! Haha! Wala lang tayong contact kay Raffy :)

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  23. He's still on *gasp* Friendster. Plus, I kinda know where he lives. Tignan natin.

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  24. Ok ok.. i-FB mo na lang 'yung details. I'm going to class now, ttyl! :)

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  25. Alright. Whurrabout ginawa lang nating chatroom yung comments box ko? Haha

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  26. "My love is bright and warm like the sun." funny how I found a resonance with the twilight reds and not the chipper noontide side of the tree.

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  27. Could it be the ghost of the first draft or something else? lol

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  28. ahhh..the two(?) facets of nyl...

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  29. Hey Geek! I guess it's just one of those things that makes me a crazy person. haha

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  30. Too intellectual for me, dahil siguro your blog is all deep and heartfelt, while mine is... pussy jokes.

    While reading all I could think of was the HTML table you must have used.

    Or if this is stil a part of your project with YJ and Victor.

    Anyways, this is my favorite post so far! Blog on!

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  31. oh my! funny pala ako. ikaw unang nagsabi sa akin nyan. hahahaha.

    nice ka. kasi kahit ung sa dark side nice pa rin ang attitude mo. pretending to be attentive requires a lot of effort. :)

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  32. i like this ah, teka sana d ka naman na bobored sa akin hehe mukha naman genuine mga tawa mo hehe

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  33. kumukomplikado ang site mo... hehehehe! nonetheless, you still mesmerized me with your words!

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  34. @Glenn: Actually, nao-OC nga ako sa kaniya kasi di siya sakto sa browser ko dito sa office. naka IE1 kasi ako. haha

    In fairness, may naka-appreciate ng HTML table ko. Aayusin ko yan mamaya para sakto lapat niya.

    At as for the pussy jokes, I really find them entertaining. May formula na nga ako eh. If(And(Blogpost.Author="Glenn", Blogpost.Topic="Pussy"), Blogpost="Favorite!") hehe

    @Nimmy: You are. Natawa talaga ako sa last comment mo.

    Mabait man yung outcome, masama parin yung intention when you fake-listen to people so bad yun. Bad. hehe

    @Xtian: Don't worry. I've never faked with you. lol

    @Ewik: Mesmerized talaga? Ikaw na! Ikaw na may big words. hehe

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  35. Blog on... excuse me, hindi ako nag skip read. Hindi ko lang alam ano i-co-comment ko

    Ang ganda ng structure (pwede na ba?)

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  36. Defensive much si Jepoy? haha

    And have I told you I counted your structure-related comments? Pangatlo palang naman to. Medyo na-exagg nung kinekwento ko sayo. haha

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  37. such a strong start--got me wondering---is there any connection between you being a good kisser because you are a good listener? I hope so---coz I think I am a good listener too.lol

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  38. Hey Antonio, malay mo nga meron. Haha like if you're really good with one of your senses, you must be good with the other one! haha

    As for being a good kisser, there's only one way to find out... lol (ask your wife heehee)

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  39. to all boys out there: beware of this lover. he could be your sweet dream or beautiful nightmare. lol

    interesting structure. magnifico.

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  40. Hmmmm, when a person shows more of his dark side, I'm so convinced that he's a genuine person -- kahit nakakastress ang pag-uugali.

    Saan ka humuhugot ng inspirasyon sa mga entry mo? Haha

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  41. i like the first two lines : D

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  42. "nyl" in nyl's perspective :D

    i like this. reading the many facets of you ;)

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  43. @Yas: Kailangan dagdagan yung Beyonce songs? haha

    @Ronnie: How odd. They say you attract your own personality and I've been known to gravitate towards complicated or sometimes ill-mannered people. haha maybe i appreciate the genuine-ness. Idk lol

    As for inspiration, wala lang naman. For this one, it was something na medyo na over-analyze ko. Even before the first move, it was doomed na!

    @Ahmer: Thanks! :D

    @Lee: Thanks! I don't think there are too many. Mostly, it's just these two. hehe

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  44. "I lose interest in things before my mind is able to fully adjust to them." -ewan ko lang kung pareho tayo ng tinutukoy dito pero ganun din ako. madali magsawa. dapat lagi may bago sa buhay. something to get excited with. :)

    P.S. di ko magamit yung link ko sa blog mo kasi di pwede yung OpenID sakin. :(

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  45. kung kani-kanino ka kasi tumitingin...

    nandito naman ako...

    bwahahahahahaha....

    that's all... see you when i see you bitch!

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  46. @Allen: I'm not sure kung sawa. For me, it's fear eh. Parang I'd rather leave first than be left behind? Wow and emo ko haha

    @YJ: Wala eh, binest friend mo syota mo. lol

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  47. Imperfections are what make people interesting. Perfect people? They're quite boring, believe me.

    Cheer up! A new week is coming up. :)

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  48. I've yet to meet a perfect person so I wouldn't know. But I've met quite a few whose flaws are very ignorable. And yes, they bored me to death.

    :]

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  49. just discovered this blog through ficklecattle. and i'm hooked. this by far is the entry i can most relate to. thanks for the creative juices you released here citybuoy. :)

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  50. hey jay! thanks for dropping by! it's too bad you weren't here when i still had my skreemr music players. maybe one of these days, i'll update my music codes.

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  51. there are no explosions here and the peace at westphalia preserved. hence, the brevity elsewhere.

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  52. LOF: things were simpler then. I'd say this was an audition piece and the re-imagined version is a sloppy attempt at a sequel.

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