Wednesday, August 26, 2009

anatomy of a mistake (v4)

This is my last emo post. After this, I swear I'll stop talking about what happened. Just let me tell our story because after I post this, all will be forgotten.



1. Don’t look at me like that. I can’t focus when you look at me like that.

2. I’m not sure if I should. Eh, maybe just a few bottles.

3. Are jokes really half meant?

4. Why can’t I stop thinking about you?

5. Holding you makes me feel a little less hollow.

6. I’m with friends. Where are you?

7. The minute I stepped into that bar, I knew I was making a big mistake.

8. You have a very beautiful voice. Please stop singing while I still have control over myself.

9. I think I’m ready now.

10. 3… 2… 1… sparks.

11. This is all I have but if you’ll take it, it’s yours.

12. Your friends hate me. My friends hate you. It’s a good thing we like each other.

13. I came here to say goodbye to you. (1)

14. I’m no good with these things. I always let my mind take over. I’ll be your mind if you’ll be my heart.

15. If you’re gonna hurt me then do it quickly. Dammit. (2)

16. You’re so broken. I think I can fix you. Don’t cry anymore. I’m right here.

17. Your promise: no matter what happens, whether or not we end up together, we’ll always be in each other’s lives.

18. B-- who?

19. Love is so painful. I wonder why people even bother. I need you.

20. I never knew the simple pleasure of watching a movie while holding your hand. It’s like before you, my hands were empty. I don’t want them to be empty anymore.

21. Too high. Can’t come down. Losing my head. Spinning ‘round and ‘round. This feels like loving for the first time again.

22. Who am I to you? What is this to you? I can’t do this anymore. It hurts too much. (3)

23. Running. Raining. Thinking you would come after me.

24. Should we talk? I’m sure there are things to be said.


25. I love you, too. I’ll fight while I still can. Even if it hurts. A lot.

26. It’s been three days. I’ve missed you. Why are we pretending like nothing happened? Yes, let’s talk tomorrow.

27. You’re not here. If you really love me, why aren’t you here? Don’t I deserve more than silence?

28. This hurts too much. Goodbye. (4)

29. There’s beauty in breaking down in front of friends.

30. My head is spinning. My eyes are swollen. Where is my heart? If you don’t want it, can I please have it back?



Moonstar88
Migraine
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20 comments:

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  2. love is indeed a battlefield.... but then i remember your face and i'm ready for war....

    cheer up bebigurl..... we're here for you... you know.....")

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  3. yes.. last day na ng ka-emohan ngayon. and a wise person knows how to choose his battles.

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  4. im but a fan..im not even close to being called an 'acquiantance'..but i want you to know, im here for you..hugs po..i know how you feel.were in the same emo situation right now

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  5. im but a fan..im not even close to being called an 'acquiantance'..but i want you to know, im here for you..hugs po..i know how you feel.were in the same emo situation right now

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  6. im but a fan..im not even close to being called an 'acquiantance'..but i want you to know, im here for you..hugs po..i know how you feel.were in the same emo situation right now

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  7. im but a fan..im not even close to being called an 'acquiantance'..but i want you to know, im here for you..hugs po..i know how you feel.were in the same emo situation right now

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  8. @cb: i find it interesting that when you write fiction it flows and flows and flows and when you write non-fiction, it's in list form. i write fiction in list form and can't express myself directly in nonfiction at all. well, your list-like poetry is still beautiful.

    @period: wag mo po-in siya, emo daw.

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  9. @Period thanks. :D wala na. tapos na ka emo-han ka. haha most played song ko na tong migraine sa ipod ko e kakaupload ko lang nung isang araw. haha it helped flush the bad people out. malay mo makatulong.

    @LOF i didn't even realize that until you said it. i couldn't write our story the way i wanted it to be written. it always felt like there was something wrong. so in the end, i just made a list. fill in the blanks or whatever.

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  10. @LOF hmm but then again, i was writing about the same person in paint it black, dying/time and briefly in my birthday post. maybe when i want to write everything and it affects me on a very serious level, that's when i resort to ordered lists.

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  11. i also failed to mention your new profile pic. very preppy

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  12. 27. You’re not here. If you really love me, why aren’t you here? Don’t I deserve more than silence?

    nkarelate naman ako dyan!
    :P

    tama yan.
    pagbibigay ng utos sa sarili na...
    'THIS WILL BE THE LAST'
    haha!
    sana masunod. :P

    nako nuh! if pera ang reward ng pageendure ng pain sa buhay pag-ibig...
    napakayaman ng bansang Pilipinas.
    Martir mga tao dito ee.

    go!
    sana makita na natin ang mga rason sa likod ng mga pangyayaring ito!
    :P

    'nahihilo... nalilito...'
    :P

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  13. @LOF thanks! haha it's an old picture. may '09 i think.

    @gege oo masusunod yan. mind over matter. mind over heart.

    natawa naman ako... oo, kung may bayad ang pagkakamartir, siguro milyonaryo na ako. kaso di naman yumaman si ninoy. namatay pa nga siya eh.

    all i can do (and you should do it, too) is believe that at some point, magiging malinaw din ang lahat. kahit na nahihilo at nalilito tayo. haha aasa ba ako sa kanya? di na no. aasa ako sa sarili ko. that's always better.

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  14. an ounce of emo is healthy. a pound is an addiction.

    smile ka lang. this too shall pass. sabi nila.

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  15. hi friend, it is ok to love. that makes us human. to be hurt? that's inevitable. small things can happen, usually big things start there. nobody really knows the science of loving, so keep experimenting, keep risking...

    love you friend... :)

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  16. @MkSurf8 It has! :D hehe I was serious when i said na last time na talaga to ng kaemohan. pero i like what you said.. ilalagay ko yan sa t-shirt. an ounce of emo is healthy. a pound is an addiction. hehehe

    @PB Thanks friend. <3 u too :D

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  17. i am happy you're over it now. i bet it made you grow stronger. :)

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  18. it did. :D and even though i'll never be the same again, at least i know i learned something from it. whudabout turning negativity into positivity? i sound like a hippie. :D

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  19. It feels as if I know everything, from 1 to 30.

    I'm glad the worst is over.

    Migraine is indeed the perfect song for you.

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  20. That's 'cause you do. haha

    yeah, perfect song siya sa akin. famous last words: asan bako sayo? aasa bako sayo?

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