Monday, May 25, 2009

sooner or later

…everyone leaves.



I was a little sleepy when I checked my mail today. I swore I must’ve been still sleeping when I saw an annulment of sorts in my inbox.

From: Multiply <multiply@multiply.com>
Subject: Please confirm _____’s change to your relationship

_____ is requesting a change in the way your relationship is identified on Multiply - from Life Partner to Friend. Please visit your Home page to either accept or reject _____'s request. If you reject, then we will continue to recognize your relationship with _____ as Life Partner.

With a few mouse clicks, she was finally able to tell me everything she’s been holding back for months. Much as I would like to think that we would be partners for life, she needed to make some changes- note: not want to but had to. I can't blame her. She had every right to do this.

I’ve been moved to the Friends category (which is undoubtedly where I belong).

I guess I got what I deserved. “I’m sorry, I really tried.” I said six months ago*. I was sorry then. I’m still sorry now.

Sorry I wasn’t who you expected. Sorry I wasn't who I expected. Sorry we couldn’t get past certain things. Sorry I couldn’t even tell you to your face. Sorry. Sorry.

My hand slowly crept up the mouse. I closed my eyes, clicked the green button and let her go. Isn't it strange how technology has warped us all?

The All-American Rejects
It Ends Tonight
Move Along

29 comments:

  1. or maybe you let technology warped you?

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  2. perhaps.. i dunno. i guess it's just me. i used to think everyone was just as warped as me. hehe

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  3. woah. You need to make kwento tom. I'm confused.

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  4. yup, 'everyone leaves'. i'd love to hear more about this...

    well, i hope you're okay.

    btw, i adore 'it ends tonight'. a lot! ;)

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  5. @Apol yeah, i think you know about this one pero sige, i'll elaborate later.

    @Flinch well based on experience, (and tell me if i'm being too jaded) no one really stays forever. kahit friends mo, at some point magkakawalaan. i'm okay naman. i guess i was a little sad lang when i posted this. re: it ends tonight it's one of my favorite AAR songs. go AAR!

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  6. Hmmm, isa sa mga prinsipyo ko is wag mamilit ng ayaw. Kaya hinahayaan ko sila umalis (mawala) sa buhay ko ang mga ayaw na sa akin.

    Mahirap mamilit eh. =(

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  7. how sad. :c understandable but sad nonetheless.

    kung wala rin naman silang mapapala sa akin, why would i stop them, right? :c

    sad because it's true.

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  8. naging mas madali kaya kung sa ganitong paraan ako binitawan ni NJ?

    at bakit d natin napagusapan kanina toh?

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  9. haha busy tayo kanina eh. ayoko naman magpa-star diba?

    digital na ngayon ang lahat. kahit pakikipag-break. haha

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  10. i totally have no idea what this all means -- shrouded in multiply.com metaphors!

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  11. @LOF for once, i have you stumped! haha it's nothing. just me being emo.

    @period *there there*

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  12. this is a nice post. bakit kasi you let her go? you never should have let her go. :) pero nasa sa'yo naman yan eh..

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  13. welcome to cb!

    well, i had to let her go because we wanted different things. i wanted different things and i didn't think it would be fair to her. hehe it's a little complicated

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  14. you wanted different things.. why not try to reconcile? hehe..

    good luck :)

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  15. err i think it's a little too late for that. hmm... let's just say we want different things now.

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  16. err i want different things now.

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  17. its so ambiguous: i'm not sure if you're talking about a totally emotionally bankrupt female friend who didn't receive bail out money from you or your trophy girlfriend in a parallel non-gay Chinese universe. *baffled* lol.

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  18. sorry. :c let's just say its remnants from a past life.. if i believed in past lives that is. i'll tell you when i see you. hehe

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  19. warp us? i thought we shaped the technology to do just that. of course i'm talking about just the Multiply site.

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  20. i dunno.. i kinda felt warped. or maybe that was the creator's intention in the first place. i just miss the days when u could break up without the use of technology.

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  21. thanks jubs! hehe i guess it was. may sense lang of regret.

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  22. better to have doubt than to suppress it and become a fanatic

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  23. uh huh. suppression is bad for the heart. hehe

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  24. hmmm nakakaintriga naman to...

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  25. di naman masyado. medyo komplikado lang kasi nahihirapan ako i-put to words. :D

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  26. well technology did change the way people connect or disconnect. anyway nuon wala pang cellphone so no one breaks up over text messages...or PM's.
    well i think it's good that both of you got to know each other well enough to make a decision. not all has that opportunity, i.e.: ME.

    anyway...

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  27. yeah. like how one of the jonas brothers broke up with taylor swift through text. haha technology has screwed us all up.

    i don't think we reached a decision. it was more like i decided and then she decided. strange talaga. parang wala ka nang no choice. haha

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