Sunday, March 1, 2009

update: blood


I’ve been having these really violent dreams lately. When I wake up, I feel breathless and I’m almost always sure I have a new scratch wound somewhere. Today, it’s right above my upper lip. Most of the blood’s clotted by now but I still don’t understand why my body becomes so violent once the lights go down.

In this particular dream, a faceless old man is choking me. I was begging him to let me breathe but the monster had different plans for me. He took his time to make me suffer. Each move was precise. I was not his first victim. He was just about to draw a gun when I woke up, gasping and grateful to be alive.

Forgiveness is easy. It’s acceptance and forgetting that’s a bitch.

8 comments:

  1. fuck yeah! hahaha. acceptance sucks.

    some times, its better if all of them just goes to the short-term memory asap. :)

    ReplyDelete
  2. "some times, its better if all of them just goes to the short-term memory asap. :)"

    @herbs. so true. parang eternal sunshine. sana maerase nalang.

    but then again, how else would we learn all the important lessons these situations bring us? siguro balance lang.

    ReplyDelete
  3. nelly... i always have bad dreams... almost every other night... it didn't seem a big deal to me... i was like this since i was young... hmmm...

    in your case, it seems like i know where it is coming from... let it go nyl... or else it will just haunt you... even in yor sleep...

    we love you dude...

    ReplyDelete
  4. "let it go nyl... or else it will just haunt you... even in yor sleep..."

    thank you juber. that means a lot. i'll do my best.

    hope we both get good dreams soon.

    ReplyDelete
  5. isn't that bangungot na?

    its true about forgetting--its hard lalot grabe yun nagawa ng isang tao madali mag sorry at magpatawad pero yun kalimutan at tanggapin lahat e ibang usapan

    ReplyDelete
  6. di pa naman bangungot. although i'll be really careful to eat at least three hours before bedtime. haha

    why is it that it's easier to forgive than forget? hello the corrs? *sigh*

    ReplyDelete