Thursday, March 19, 2009

update: so tahrdy

2007: All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy.
2008: Less work and a little play makes Jack a regular boy.
2009: More work and more play makes Jack a tahrdy* boy.

On most days I find myself slumped over my bed, too lazy to even change my clothes (or my bedsheets). Work has got me so drained physically and emotionally that it's beginning to take its toll. I waited all week for an epiphany to write about but nothing came. I was still tired. I was still in the city and not a single muse was there to guide the way.

I need a vacation. citybuoy needs to be provincebuoy for at least a week. I filed for a vacation leave and it got beautifully and ceremoniously rejected. Boo. I guess I'm not hitting the beach any time soon. Since then, work's become such a bitch. I've worn out my new shoes from dragging my heels to work. I need to come to terms with the fact that because of graduation season, work's going to be a little hectic. With more and more classes full of fresh trainees, dreams of running with sand at my feet have given way to speech drills and tall caramel macchiatos.

I tried psyching myself. Yes! I've got work in the morning! I am sooo excited! That didn't work.

I tried tricking my mind into thinking I was on vacation. Let's go to the grocery! I'm going to get some butter cookies! I'm sooo excited! Didn't work.

I even tried sleeping in my swim shorts hoping that I would dream of the ocean. Didn't work either.

Help me. I neeeeeeed a vacation. Burning out in 5... 4... 3... xxx

18 comments:

  1. Go. File another leave. It won't hurt if you try again =)

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  2. tara. lets go defy the universe again! lets be on vacation! :DDD

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  3. @apol wala na ako kasama eh. :c sayang talaga yung kina mai. oh well papel.

    @herbs why not. haha pero i don't wanna defy the universe. baka balikan ako.

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  4. don't worry... at least you can still keep your job.

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  5. bitter much? haha. walang mangyayare if you'll just give in! FIGHT!!!

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  6. @juber kaw din naman eh. hehe at the end of the day, ayoko rin magcomplain. kasi at least may trabaho, right?

    @ej i'm not bitter. realistic lang. haha

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  7. "I even tried sleeping in my swim shorts hoping that I would dream of the ocean." -- nalungkot naman ako dito. Ganon ka-grabeh?! =(

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  8. "nalungkot naman ako dito. Ganon ka-grabeh?! =("

    oo ganon na kagrabe. :c

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  9. haven't you tried those microvacation thing? I think they're cool, never tried one though

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  10. microvacation? what's that? oooh.. googling...

    ooh. spa day? sounds interesting.

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  11. if you feel like a vegetable being run back and forth on a vegetable shredder don't wait until they throw what's left into the pot with the rest of the boiling soup! vacate, vacate, vacate.

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  12. i love your metaphor. it really suits me. hehe

    i have a suspicion that i'm one of the gnarly veggies that no one likes to eat. perhaps i need to pass through the damn shredder. who knows? i might actually learn something.

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  13. the tibetans have a meditation where you imagine your ego being chopped into pieces called the Chod practice. the practice is used to develop more compassion for the suffering of others.

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  14. i've always seen my ego as a sort of blob- similar to the texture of oatmeal but tougher. i doubt if anyone can crush that. bwahahaha

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  15. the tibetans are quite clever and thought out that dilemma of the ego-oatmeal. they make you visualize your ego as your body and you chop that up into pieces!

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  16. *ouch* good thing it's just a visualization. i wouldn't want to die developing compassion for the suffering of others. haha

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  17. yeah, me too. that's why i'm not a buddhist monk!

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  18. you might as well be. haha i learned something today. i always saw monks as a purer form of teachers- going a step beyone teaching and actually living by example.

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