Monday, March 16, 2009

update: reminder


I was looking for this book that a friend of mine wanted to borrow. As I flipped through the pages in search of ATM receipts and other embarrassing makeshift bookmarks, a small piece of paper flew out. It was a little thing I wrote over a year ago at the back of a used schedule tracker.

Now that you’re gone, I find myself closer to God. I pray for strength and courage for each day that feels like my last. I pray for heavy rain to conceal my crying eyes. I pray for love to one day find its way back to me. But mostly, I find myself praying for slumber for it is what eludes me most.

I know what you’re thinking. It’s so melodramatic, it almost plays like a weepy country song. Seeing it now, it makes me cringe a little (conceal my crying eyes?). I guess I’ve forgotten how shattered I was back then. It’s nice to sit back and think about how I somehow pulled through. Although I still have a few missing pieces, I know that I’m almost whole again. Sometimes, all you need is a little reminder to show you how far you’ve come.

8 comments:

  1. so cute and sweeet :)

    arent we just all proud of how much we've gone through already.

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  2. "so cute and sweeet :)

    arent we just all proud of how much we've gone through already."

    yes. even prouder of the fact that i published this at 2:04 and i had to be up by 5:30. i'm at work, uber sleepy.

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  3. And if you continue noting more important things, who knows how further you can go?

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  4. "And if you continue noting more important things, who knows how further you can go?"

    so true. epiphanies rock. btw, love the latest comic.

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  5. "Sometimes, all you need is a little reminder to show you how far you’ve come. "

    =) that's very nice and positive nyl! Ah lyk it!

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  6. "=) that's very nice and positive nyl!"

    well, what am i if not "nice and positive"? i'm practically a ray of friggin' sunlight. haha

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  7. im happy that you feel this way. i thought di ka na ever makakamove on. ching! ahehehe.

    i miss you nyl!

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  8. it's all in the mind. ika nga ng mommy ni apol, ang pag-ibig, l**** lang yan. haha

    i miss u, too! :c

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