on april and zac efron

I was in bed this morning thinking it’s been a week since I wrote anything and I should probably get to it. I fired up my laptop and started drafting this stalker story I’ve had in my head since the weekend. Somewhere in the middle of “I’m not really here” and “My skin blends into the walls,” I got a little lost. I couldn’t remember what I wanted to say or where I wanted to take my stalker. I completely forgot my story.

A few minutes and a fuji apple later, I was bored to tears. I was ready to give up. I saved the single paragraph that materialized before my brain conked out and resolved to entertain other story ideas. I’ve always wanted to do a sort of retrospective on how things were like for me this time last year. I went through my vintage buoys and to my surprise, this is what I found tucked in the bowels April 2011.

B4N. As I look at my archives, I realize I haven’t written anything real in a long time. It feels like I’ve lost my purpose, my reason for logging into Blogger week after week. I started this blog because I wanted a means to express myself. Why then does it feel like I’ve stifled my own voice?

My life’s a little fucked up right now. There are things I need to discover, feelings and ghosts I need to deal with and so I’m taking a little break from blogging. It’s a decision I made with a heavy heart but one I know I need if I hope to return to some semblance of normalcy. I’ll be back faster than you can say not-another-blog-hiatus or didn’t-he-do-this-last-year? Hopefully, by that time, I’ll have found the real reason for my unhappiness. To friends, followers, lurkers old and new, wish me luck as I venture into a new quest of self-discovery. ■

Okaaaay… not an easy angle to spin. Let’s check out what I was doing two years ago.

AFK. Just to make things clear, I’m still on hiatus. There are a few things I still need to finish before I can fully commit to this page again. I realize that my last post, if anything, was a bit vague on the issue and so I wanted to write a quasi-epilogue to explain. ■

Another hiatus? That last post I was referring to didn’t help much either.

BYE FOR NOW!!! I’ve come to the conclusion that I need a little break from blogging to focus on other stuff. My life is a mess right now and I think I need all the epiphanies I can get for myself. I won’t be closing this blog. It’s become such a big part of me that to shut it down would be like cutting off an appendage. Anyway, I don’t know how long I’ll be gone. Maybe it’ll take a day, maybe a few weeks or maybe a year. I don’t really know. One thing’s for sure, I will be back and I’ll have a lot more buoys to share with you then. ■

*fingers crossed* Three years ago?

BRB. In completely unrelated news, I’ve decided to take a break from heavy blogging. I’ve recently reacquainted with my first love- fiction. I finally finished writing a story (two years after I wrote my last story) plus I’ve got a few buns in the oven just waiting to be written. Like most infants, they need all the attention they can get and so to do that, I decided to limit my blogging. *hangs up Do Not Disturb sign* See you in a few weeks (hopefully with something good)! ■

Ugh. Four years ago?

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Waddapack?! I didn’t even bother to write anything in April 2008. I checked and I was right in the middle of a nine-month hiatus. NINE MONTHS. If I were a celebrity, people would’ve gossiped that I had a baby or something!

I sat there, completely mind-fucked by my writing patterns. And all this time, I thought I was just tired. I didn’t know that this month typically saw me hiding from this blog and that I had four years of historical data working against me. What is it about April that dries my pen? I chewed on this question for a little bit and when there weren’t any easy answers, I just said fuck it. Daddy needs a little break anyway. And besides, I’ve always been such a sucker for tradition.

So this is me hiat-ing. I’ll be back in a week or so unless giant snails take over the world (in which case it’s every man for himself!) While I’m gone, here are some gratuitous pictures of Zac Efron that will change your life. You can thank me once you’ve thrown your used Kleenex away. :x



♫: Zac Efron | Get'cha Head In the Game (2006)
Photos: buzzfeed

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