denial
i fear not for what we have become.
this heart beats not for you.
i fear not for we are nothing.
i do not see myself
growing more and more
in your art, in your life.
you find me not in your hands.
i do not see you in me,
not in the words that i speak
or the music in my ears.
you are not in every thought.
so i fear not.
this heart beats not for you.
i fear not for we are nothing.
i do not see myself
growing more and more
in your art, in your life.
you find me not in your hands.
i do not see you in me,
not in the words that i speak
or the music in my ears.
you are not in every thought.
so i fear not.
♫: Portishead | Glory Box (1994)
that moment you feel that you're finally falling for that person. love it. welcome back too :D
ReplyDeleteHustin: Mismo! hehe I wrote this back in October. Nakakatuwa lang to see how much can change in almost a year.
DeleteSalamat for dropping by and for welcoming me back! :) Di ako sanay na nakikita ka dito! Sa Twitter lang tayo madalas magkita eh. hehe :)
I saw this on reader and I was like, am i still dreaming? Nyl has a post? Haha. But it is true, and I am giddy about it. I remember this conversation we have at moon leaf, how this person see you before and if ever I am allowed to talk about that, hahaha. Hence, I will not go into the details.
ReplyDeleteHustin is correct.
And, you know how happy I am for you, for the two of you, rather. :D
LJ: Salamat, friend! Uy, angas ng profile picture ah. At sorry, medyo hazy and memory ko. Anong conversation sa Moonleaf?
DeleteI already answered this. Rated SPG. :D
DeleteLJ: Magagalit si Carmina at Zoren! haha
Deleteglad to see you're back. i missed you, nyl. :)
ReplyDeleteAris: And I missed all of you too! Grabe, ilang buwan din pala ako nawala. haha
DeleteI recall reading some comments sa blog ni Joms about how difficult it is to sustain yung pagu-update after some time. I meant to tell you, oo. Iba na talaga ngayon. Siguro nahirapan lang ako mag-adjust. hehe
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ReplyDeleteLOF: Mmmmmhmm again? haha I must backread to recall what you mean by that. But then again, I remember what you told me when you first read this. haha
DeleteWell, well, well.
ReplyDeleteRudeboy: Balon, balon, balon... haha
DeleteHo ho ho you're soooooo funny, Sadako.
DeleteRudeboy: Is this a manifestation of you missing me? lolz See, I did good on our email exchange. Told you I'd be back. :p
DeleteAt the risk of stating the obvious, everyone's happy you're back.
DeleteMyself included, natch.
Rudeboy: Lakas maka-bagets ng natch ha. In fairness. lolz
DeleteWell, I'm happy to be back too. :) It's been too long since I last updated.
See, Nyl, that's why you feel old, you grumpy young man.
DeleteYou're only as old as you're willing to sacrifice infants to Bazgul every full moon.
WV: 20 ityPEDO
Rudeboy: So that's your secret. lolz Adik ka.
DeleteIt just occurred to me that in 10 years, the boy (or buoy, in my case) in our Blogger names will seem more like a joke than a curse. haha
I love the duality. Welcome back Nyl :) Sana tuloy tuloy na to.
ReplyDeleteRei: haha you know how I love duality. :p Thanks, Rei! Sana nga. :)
DeleteI'll be expecting more posts Nyl :P
DeleteRei: May expectation na talaga? Shetttttt!!! haha
Deletenyl!!! weebee!!! so when's our coffeedate? lol
ReplyDeleteNate: Salamat! :) Oo nga, parating napopostpone. Balita ko may grand eeebee daw kayo nitong weekend. haha Kayo na ang mga QC girls. jejeje
DeleteIt's great to see you back! I liked this piece :)
ReplyDeleteBeliza: Thanks for dropping by! I am so relieved to be writing again. haha :)
DeleteSo happy you're posting again! :)) And that piece--well I know from experience how torturous that feels.
ReplyDeleteRZ: Ooh! A familiar face! hehe :)
DeleteYes, I remember how it felt to write this down. It's such a troubling mix of excitement and disappointment. Pero I guess it's all part of the process (?) haha
nagbusy-busyhan ako for awhile. tinapos ko lahat ng requirement for my application - permanent residency natapos na din sa wakas ready for submission this friday...
ReplyDeleteim glad you are back... yay!..
JJRod'z
JJ: Oh wow! Di lang pala ako ang nawala ng matagal. hehe Glad you're back too! :)
DeleteMade me smile.
ReplyDeleteCarlo: ooh you really are back! :) I'm glad this made you smile. I know a lot of my posts elicit a different reaction. Hehe
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