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Wednesday, January 26, 2005

Monday, January 24, 2005

sad

i sent joel a letter and i thought everything was peachy but everything's just so weird. plus, i heard some nasty things that he supposedly said bout me... sad... :(

Friday, January 14, 2005

the council meets the education journal...

today marks the day i met the staff of my ex-org. they were so confused. it turns out, erwin fed them all this bullshit on me and debbie being such perfectionists and having unrealistic standards. that was supposedly the reason why we quit.

i met ronald and alex from cesc and they completely changed my outlook on the council. right now, i learned that they're not the assholes i had them made up to be. they're actually nice people who aren't so angas once you get to know them. they're really cool and they shared the same point of view in terms of cy and joe (yeah, the same joe who wrote that poem) -- that they're... oh well, maybe next time.

i'm glad this day happened. it makes me feel like i've got a place in the college. they even said they didn't know that the layout was a soloish effort and so they were congratulating the wrong person (erwin). in the first place, what they didn't know is that i would've made that layout regardless of who the eic is so i hope he (erwin) doesn't get any wrong ideas of personal greatness. i feel like i've got a purpose... that i somehow racked things up in the college.

they say the members of EJ who also happened to be members of the council are forming a faction against the incumbent council. it was then that they supposedly formulated the idea that EJ was a force to reckon with. so they made it seem like EJ was their ammunition... their main argument against the current council... but then why would they do that when they had nothing much to do with EJ in the first place. none of them got printed in the first EJ and most of them work for courier (news dept.). how dare they use EJ when they had nothing to do with its change... i told them (ronald and alex) not to worry because the next EJ will be different... i'll be sure of it. i'll make sure it'll be damned if i'm not in it. (yabang! hehehe)

i'm going to excert my right to the copyright of the layout, logo, and all of my intellectual property in terms of layout. i really want them to feel how much they need debbie and i.

dc wrote us a letter and it just proved how much bullshit erwin's been feeding them. if ever i do come back, it'll be out of pity. who's going to lead them next? cy? oh please... you've heard of 'blind leading the blind'? try 'dead leading the dead'...

okay, gotta go. i swear i'll tell the cute story i promised you next time. :D

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!

i got such a low score in the prelims! i hate my major!!!!!!

ive got a really cute story that i'm going to tell you when i'm not feeling so shitty!

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

winners never quit. i quit. why do i feel like i won?

i finally quit EJ. i feel absolutely wonderful.

last night, i stayed up reviewing for a preliminary exam (midterm) and i think i just aced it. the test is good for an hour and a half but i finished it in 10 minutes. i wasn't careless though. i reviewed my answer, never mind that someone else finished ahead of me.

vangie and i talked last night and i'm glad she understands me and my decision. part of me really misses EJ but i know i have to leave if i want them to see that there is a problem with the system - a political system that chooses people not by their capability but by their personal relationships and longevity inside the office.

i seriously need to study for the test later. this morning was excel lecture. this afternoon, i've got excel lab.

mental note to self: call sir robbie of publishing house to delete my copyrighted layout. i'm actually excited to take the test this afternoon. i've practically memorized the program...

Thursday, January 6, 2005

quitters never win and winners never quit

blah blah blah...

today, i complete phase 2 of my quitting EJ. i deleted all files that i made, including last sem's layout, the logos, etc. i might have to call the publishing house so that they delete their copies too.

i'm going to talk to ate dich and ate debbie since i feel like their my mothers here. i don't like ate debbie as much as before. something's changed. something that i cannot restore. as for ate dich, god knows she's never around.

tomorrow, i'm going to clean out my locker, bring home my speakers, and remove the YM lan settings.

i'm quitting because of politics. i'm quitting because of pushed deadlines. i'm quitting because i don't want to be surrounded by idiots. i'm quitting because i'm not happy. artisitically, i've plateaued. so many articles get published because the board likes the author or the EIC finds her pretty. never mind that the article is mindless, he can't tell the difference.

plus there's all this politics. i mean, right now if i weren't quitting, i would know that two years from now, i'll be EIC. that's how thick the politics in this place is. next year, it's debbie and then after that it's me. everybody knows that. right now, i consider myself to be among the most competent in the staff but it doesn't matter. our EIC was put there because he's been here the longest. never mind that he can't spell grinch or that he uses flowery words that don't make sense. he wrote a dependent clause and disguised it as a flowery sentence. it's all a bunch of bullshit.

plus i hate the student council and everybody's chummy with them here. this fat guy named joe hung out in our office totally unsupervised for about an hour. he left, locking the office and leaving his CDs so we'd all know he's coming back. he played a game of chess with himself, left the pieces with a note to the EIC. he's (our EIC) been begging everyone to play and now he's got joe. the letter's so plethoric... just like his poetry which he left as a form of gratitude... here it is, totally verbatim.

COMETS OF OUR NIGHT SKY
The sparks of the comet flashes at every place
The neverending emptiness of space
That surrounds us each day
That is so far away

Brilliant comets that roam the galaxy
As a traveler on a long journey
When it passes one day
just a blink of the eye it'll fade away

It is close, so close as ever
How these heavenly beings shine
That we cannot reach and ponder
Truth that we must accept and incline

Don't take it for granted nor let it slip away
Keep this in your memories these words I say;
Like serene field, lovely twinkles, and sweet breeze
"Nothing gold can stay…"

"FOR EJ GRATITUDE POEM TO YOU ALL THANKS. HOPE YOU LIKE IT."
FROM JOE - …ASPIRANT…

way to plaigarize frost...

i hate this... i hate the people and i hate the work so i'll just leave. what's sad is the two things i'll miss in the office is the free internet and the locker space...

there was a time when i thought i could really change the way things are going but now, i find myself wrapped up in the same system that i wanted to combat. i need to get some decent sleep at night and being here prohibits me from doing so. so i guess i'll just leave.

xoxox

Wednesday, January 5, 2005

has anyone seen my brain?

i lost my brain... it's around here (computer lab) somewhere. i lost it. i heard poofing and cracking and a faint voice saying "fuck this! i'm outta here!".

a very difficult test in comptech was the reason behind its apparent disappearance. i failed the test by one silly mistake... drrrrrrrr.... by skipping one step, i spelled the difference between 1 and 5.

Tuesday, January 4, 2005

outdated

my website closed. my blog's outdated. i'm quitting ej. i miss joel and the gang...
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